Addicted to Mania

Actually, my depression rarely shows up. Mania, on the other hand, is whew! Let's party, have fun and go nuts. My meds, Zyrexa (brings me down in a hurry) and Depakote (not sure what it does), bring me down and I don't know what to do with myself. I'm like, mania, where art thou? LOL

I write and can't stand writing the "boring" parts because it is not a high. But, something happened, I know there is a hole in me that gobbles up "highs" and anything that can make me high in my head. Then, I found a novel I could really write about a bunch of people in Hollywood living on constant highs. But, it has a ton of sex in it and I really shouldn't be writing it since I'm a Christian. Sex is how I soothe myself. Wondering if I'm a sex addict (know I am a love addict since I love writing love stories).

Can anyone relate? Any help for me? God has been great with it.

Well, I have no hangups about sex whatsoever. On a high I turn into Freddie Mercury's ghost.

I don't think anyone knows what Depakote does I guess it's no secret by now that I fear and loathe antipsychotics, and that hole is the main reason why.

Highs can feel great but two problems are as follows

1. They can get out of control and be destructive
2. You can crash from them

I do uderstand how good it feels to be high tho - but it is something which needs careful management because of the above problems I mentioned.

Just as an aside I think God is fine with sex. It is also worth bearing in mind that high mood can cause hypersexuality

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CrackedGirl wrote:Highs can feel great but two problems are as follows

1. They can get out of control and be destructive
2. You can crash from them

I do uderstand how good it feels to be high tho - but it is something which needs careful management because of the above problems I mentioned.

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Yes, that's why I'm taking Lamictal, which seems to damp the amplitude without squashing it. They haven't been out of control since I went to 300mg. Crashes, though. Yeah. Not so nice, especially because there's usually a mixed episode between the two of them.

I'll take the risk, though. Life is risk, all you can do is try to manage it as best you can. Antipsychotics? I'd rather be dead.

I have a rather different view on death from the medical model. Death is nothing, and nothing to fear. I'll be back.

CrackedGirl wrote:Just as an aside I think God is fine with sex. It is also worth bearing in mind that high mood can cause hypersexuality

You can say that again

sixprime wrote:Yes, that's why I'm taking Lamictal, which seems to damp the amplitude without squashing it. They haven't been out of control since I went to 300mg. Crashes, though. Yeah. Not so nice, especially because there's usually a mixed episode between the two of them.

I'll take the risk, though. Life is risk, all you can do is try to manage it as best you can. Antipsychotics? I'd rather be dead.

I have a rather different view on death from the medical model. Death is nothing, and nothing to fear. I'll be back.

Glad the lamotrigine is working for you and still allowing life to be interesting

I have been on some VILE antipsychotics - amisulpride springs to mind immediately. But have found that the ones I am on atm are pretty reasonable (aripiprazole and quetiapine).

sixprime wrote:You can say that again

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Thanks, everyone!