What is wrong with me

I am 17 years old. my dad is a severe bipolar and i haven't seen him for the last 6 years because he couldn't handle his responsabilities. my sister is depressive and has tried to commit suicide over the last year. i have noticed this year that i am acting more and more like my dad. sleeping less than 5 hours a night for weeks, drinking smoking acting impulsively and being an asshole to everyone who cares about me, followed by crying all the time and wanting to end it so often. it just feels like i got demons in my head that i cant control. i have great things coming my way but my head seems to be bringing me down all the time. i got so many questions with no answers

I really don’t know what to say other than I’m sorry your going through all this. I’ve been 17 before (although be it a long time ago) and I know how hard it is. If I were you I’d speak to a counselor or a therapist, maybe ones available at school? It’s good to at least get all this stuff off your chest and maybe they can help you receive further help.

Dizaster wrote:I am 17 years old. my dad is a severe bipolar and i haven't seen him for the last 6 years because he couldn't handle his responsabilities. my sister is depressive and has tried to commit suicide over the last year. i have noticed this year that i am acting more and more like my dad. sleeping less than 5 hours a night for weeks, drinking smoking acting impulsively and being an asshole to everyone who cares about me, followed by crying all the time and wanting to end it so often. it just feels like i got demons in my head that i cant control. i have great things coming my way but my head seems to be bringing me down all the time. i got so many questions with no answers

It sounds like things are difficult for you atm for sure. And also like mental illness runs in the family. I think it would be wise for you to tell someone in 3D who can help you figure this out. Could you talk to your Mum about this? Or failing that a Dr or therapist? I think it would be helpful to do so as then ppl can assess whether or not something is going on and if it is then think about management/treatment. I really hope things improve for you but I think it would be wise to seek 3D help

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