Lanka wrote:I know my BP side, I can feel the cycle, or realize if it makes sudden changes after few days. Like now I'm apparently cycling at about couple of days intervals. Nothing drastic, but I can feel it in the general sleep-requirement as well as mood. But then there's outside triggers kicking me one way or other, which isn't what BP does..
Yea, so I'm not alone in what's going on. My sleep changes with my moods also - that's how I can tell there has been a definite shift. Your last sentence helped me out a lot, with the outside triggers being the BPD part, making the ride just that much more confusing. The changes I feel happening without the outside trigger or internal dialogue most likely is the BP. And thanks for the "Stuffed squirrely headpat&chocolate-chip cookie."

Oliveira wrote:Ignore the number -- it could be bipolar NOS or bipolar Wendydoesn't matter really. It's a label for insurance companies. Personally I experience lots of depression, little (hypo)mania, looooots of rapid cycling. The number doesn't really describe that too well.
Yea, you're right, it doesn't describe it too well, because we are all different and it shows up differently. I guess I'm just anal retentive and like everything to be nice and neat and explainable - NOS doesn't seem to fit into my weird perfectionist illusion.


SpacingOut wrote:So instead, I'm able to look forward to the future where I'm away from all the misery I was born into. Instead, I'll be surrounded by new people and living somewhere better... maybe not ideal, but at least better.
I've heard about that Seroquel stuff and yea, that won't cure a personality thing if that's what's going on, but as you mentioned, who knows what's going on? Too bad they thought to dope you up to try and fix you. It sucks you had to grow up in such a tough situation, I can't say I can relate, but I can say you seem strong to still be truckin' it

I do also disagree, though (nothing personal) that adding on BPD to BD does change a lot. In my situation, I've been diagnosed as Borderline for almost three years now and have been working my butt off to try and get better with that, but keep having these ups and downs that have gotten in the way and jack me up. So it was discovered that I have Bipolar on top of my Borderline, and it changes a lot. Now I'm on meds that seem to stable me out a bit and also calm down (smooth out?) some of the emotional chaotic spots of Borderline when they get triggered. I've got two time-bombs on my hands, both made with different wiring.
thejan wrote:i disagree. Note: the following presents my POV and opinion.
... Bipolar and Borderline, in their EXTREME form are different sides of the same medal (if you only take the emotions part) Borderline means you have extreme (emotional) reactions to everything you perceive or might perceive (=> environment). Bipolar means your mood is extreme while being independent from the environment.
Borderline is more "external" and Bipolar is more "internal".
I like how you dissected and analyzed all of these interesting aspect of the two disorders. At some parts I disagree with what you've typed, I didn't want to highlight all the sections I wanted to comment on (good points mostly included!). Borderline people want to control their moods/emotions also - as well as the environment. It's a protective thing, we don't want to be harmed, and when we are harmed, we don't want to feel the emotions involved. So it's external and internal. At least for me. I have an internal dialogue that makes me feel and think and act the way I do, that's my BPD. Of course, a lot has to do with external happenings, but also a lot is self-created. Delusional thinking, negative emotions due to replaying a tape of incidents in my head turning into maddening emotional turmoil. Etc. Etc. So, I agree with some of what you say about BPD, but I also disagree with some. Either way, I enjoyed looking at it how you wrote it out and it makes sense, it opened up my brain a little, so thank you.
