I don't care about anything?

I've been coming out of a bipolar "low" so I was put on the antidepressant/anti-anxiety Lexapro (10 mg). The Lexapro I think is triggering a bipolar high but it is starting to scare me because it is like nothing I have experienced before. I don't feel like I care about anything anymore. All I want to do is have fun, no matter which of my morals I might be breaking. I cheated on my boyfriend a week ago, something I have never done in my life, and I don't even care about it. I have no guilt and I just want to keep doing more fun and exciting things. I just want to go out and drink and smoke weed and have a good time.

I just found out I am slightly bipolar a few weeks ago from my therapist so I am not on any mood stabilizers. Is my experience typical of bipolar disorder? I don't have an ounce of guilt about anything I am doing and I don't even care to stop my behavior much.

Your "Have fun, no matter the cost" attitude sounds like hypomania to me, but I'm no expert and not qualified to diagnose you. Please send me 2 cents, because that is what my opinion is worth. (just kidding)

If you see your therapist weekly, tell them at the next visit. If you see them less than weekly, try and make an extra apointment soon. The "devil may care" attitude can lead to dangerous behavior. Driving wrecklessly was one of the things I did. Just glad I didn't kill or hurt anybody.

In the meantime, try and stick to your established morals. They are there to keep you safe. I know this is hard to do.

I hope your talk therapy and drugs take you off this reckless phase before somebody gets hurt.

Take care,

I had a similar response recently to Lexapro. I know exactly what you mean when you say you just couldn't make yourself care. My behaviour was erratic and dangerous and I ended up spending 4 weeks in hospital.

Please try to see your doctor ASAP. My dose was increased several times which led to me being more and more out of control and a serious risk to myself. It is really important that you tell your doctor exactly how you've been feeling.

Good luck.

lizpurc925 wrote:I've been coming out of a bipolar "low" so I was put on the antidepressant/anti-anxiety Lexapro (10 mg). The Lexapro I think is triggering a bipolar high but it is starting to scare me because it is like nothing I have experienced before. I don't feel like I care about anything anymore. All I want to do is have fun, no matter which of my morals I might be breaking. I cheated on my boyfriend a week ago, something I have never done in my life, and I don't even care about it. I have no guilt and I just want to keep doing more fun and exciting things. I just want to go out and drink and smoke weed and have a good time.

I just found out I am slightly bipolar a few weeks ago from my therapist so I am not on any mood stabilizers. Is my experience typical of bipolar disorder? I don't have an ounce of guilt about anything I am doing and I don't even care to stop my behavior much.

This is what put me in a hospital -- I called it "the f--k you mood". I slept with a lot of people; I got violent; I used drugs and alcohol after over a year completely clean; I had no ounce of care for anything or anyone. I admitted all that to doctors in the hospital in front of my boyfriend and he was really upset and I just felt... nothing. Whatever. It took me over a week of lowered antidepressant dosage to start getting my normal feelings back.

There's two things I want to tell you. First of all: contact your doctor IMMEDIATELY and tell them ALL of this. In my unqualified opinion -- but experienced -- you are experiencing some sort of mania triggered by Lexapro. Do not let this go any further than it already has. Because here is the second part: the f--k you mood will go away. And then guilt, sorrow, pain, shame will arrive. Remember you are not to blame for a lot of what has happened. You didn't ACTUALLY decide to cheat on your boyfriend. It's the mania that did it. But now that you know you are manic, it is your responsibility to ensure the period ends as quickly as possible before more damage is done.

I hope you get out of this soon and without too much wreckage. Big big hugs -- I've been there a month ago -- please keep us posted how things are going.

Thank you everyone! I didn't think it was a big deal, well, I feel like it isn't a big deal, but I will have to talk to my doctor about this. I think it is definitely the lexapro. My therapist advised I go off the lexapro but I was so depressed for so long I just don't want to! But I don't want to do anything else terrible.

Thank you for the responses.