Just Got Out of Hospital

Hey all wanted to check in. Just got out of a 6 day hospital stay. First time there.
Rapid cycles the whole time. Figured out I am homeless half way through my stay and started to have phycosis .

Overall a unpleasant expierience. Spent a whole bunch of days there and still feel unstable.
Got back to where I was living to pack my stuff and the urge to cut is strong.

Sorry not a happy hospital story.

:/

They never are. Hope you feel better soon though.

Me too. Still in this horrible mixed state and the sleeping meds wore off after like 2 hours. So here I sit, 3am shaking my feet and mind racing about depressing stuff. And I'm couch surfing at a buddies house so I can't get up and do stuff to distract myself.

-- Fri Jul 11, 2014 2:11 am --

Me too. Still in this horrible mixed state and the sleeping meds wore off after like 2 hours. So here I sit, 3am shaking my feet and mind racing about depressing stuff. And I'm couch surfing at a buddies house so I can't get up and do stuff to distract myself.

Sorry to hear you've had a bad experience. Even more sorry to hear you're still unwell. Do you think you could've benefited from staying a while longer? Or at least a change in meds or dosage? It doesn't seem like they're doing what they're supposed to!

I hope your friend can give you some support, besides letting you sleep on their couch. Don't try to take on too much at once, try and focus on getting better first.

Hugs

They put me on geodon and upper my limictal. Maybe I should have stayed longer, but I don't have any more sick leave and I have to get a new place to live. Plus, I was so fing bored in there.

I just about lost everything but my life and my job. Hopefully I don't lose the job too.

Liquid_Entropy wrote:They put me on geodon and upper my limictal. Maybe I should have stayed longer, but I don't have any more sick leave and I have to get a new place to live. Plus, I was so fing bored in there.

I can understand that! Is there any chance the meds need some time to be more effective? I've never been on geodon nor lamictal, but I remember lithium took its time. Fortunately, the other stuff my p-doc prescribed at the time helped with the manic symptoms. Then the lithium finally started to show some effects and I was able to decrease the rest of the stuff.

I know how hard it is to just "wait it out", but I'd try and stick with it for a few more days. If things don't improve, I'd definitely try to contact a doctor. Maybe they can add something, even if it's just for a short while. Just to allow you to get better and deal with all this stuff.

I really hope you get to keep your job, find a nice place to live, and stay as stable as possible. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
Hugs

Still in a hella bad mixed episode, haven't slept for 36 hours now.

Did find a apartment for rent, and I do have my follow up pdoc appointment Monday.

I'm not sure if they take awhile to work. I know geodon makes me drowsy and feel sick.

I'm not sure if I'm even capable of being stable anymore.

Just a little update. Just moved what little belongings I had into my new place. I opened the door, closed it, and cried. For like 30 minutes. I realize I lost everything I worked so hard for and put pride in. I'm a broken mess. Cutting didn't even help. I am in such a weird mood. I'm so depressed, but I can't slow down my thoughts or sleep.

Worse yet, I go back to work after 10 days. I hope they don't ask about the hospital. I am dreading it.

I have appointment with the pdoc on Monday. But I will have to find a new one soon in my local area
It's funny how life can totally collapse in one week. Utter chaos

Hang in there! Make sure you make it to the pdoc appt. and tell him/her where your mental state is at. When making it through the week feels impossible, focus on the day, or the hour. I'm sorry you're going through such a hell right now.

I can't imagine how hard it must be for you right now...

I know this isn't easy, but try and focus on things happening right now, at least until you see your doctor. Try and avoid thinking about work right now. I'm all for anticipating situations and thinking about things beforehand, but right now I don't think it's doing you any good.

Focus on your appointment tomorrow. Write down things you need to tell your doctor, and don't leave anything out. As scary as that might be, what you're going through right now is probably even scarier.

Hang in there! And if you feel things are getting out of control don't be afraid to reach out. Call a helpline, talk here, or go to the ER if that's what's necessary. Please take care!