by crackerjack » Fri Jun 20, 2014 11:44 pm
I am off meds right now too. I was just diagnosed bipolar in November, hospitalized at first of December, and quit taking meds January 1st (the side effects were so bad I quit cold turkey), and had really, really bad withdrawals for 7 days, even after being on them for only 4 weeks!
Ever since then I've been super baffled by this whole bipolar thing, and finally figured out that i'm in a Mixed state right now. Before that I had more distinct phases of hypomania/mania and depression, although I didn't even know that's what they were. I had been misdiagnosed as Anxiety Disorder 13 years ago, so all that time (and probably since my teans) I was actually living with bipolar on no meds, without even knowing my correct diagnosis or how to handle it.
Being in this Mixed state is much harder, and I feel like almost any little stressor can totally trigger me right now, like being too hungry, if I get hurt, if someone yells at me, any kind of over-stimulation just sets me off. I'm just now starting to learn that for me, keeping all stimulation to a minimum is a must. And I know I do better when I'm eating right and paying attention to my sleeping, but quite frankly, the slightest challenge gets me off track with my health habits, so even though it's helpful, counting on health habits is unrealistic for me.
I guess my advice would be to get really really prepared with some coping skills, like a therapist might have you list your early warning signs and coping techniques or something. Even the back ground stress of school and work could start to wear you down in time, and maybe you could prevent a tailspin by keeping your awareness up and being prepared.
This is coming from a 43 year old single mother of three who never made it through her 1st year of college... but I didn't know what I was coping with back then. Consider yourself lucky at least in one small way, that You know your diagnosis at such an early age, so maybe you can be better prepared for getting through your life with it a lot better than I did!
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