I fear that I might be bipolar. But the thing about me is that I worry too much.. I have self diagnosed myself with countless illnesses.
I broke up with my gf pretty soon and since than i have been pretty sad half of the day and pretty up the other half. The problem is that there are like 5,6 episodes of " mania" and " depression".
Now when I think about my past behavior , I do get pretty excited and impulsive about things and I am pretty adventures natuarlly, but I also can think of some pretty damn low lows. What dosent match up is that even when im "deppressed'', i might hate life when I am alone, if a buddy calls me and wants to meet i get pretty elevated once again. And even if I am low, im still open to new experiances and easy to exccite.
When im in my highs, I do tend to do more stuff rather when Im down ,but nothing too extrime. I have a lot of ideas and I feel more ambitios and stuff, but again, nothing extreme.
I also tend to get my "highs " (dont wanna call them mania periods yet, lol ) a lot of the time when I am with friends. Then they last sometimes the whole day, when I am alone ups and down rotate like a rollercoaster, but a lot of the time I am pretty natural too.
Does this sound bipolar to you? I need objective opinion