FINNALY-good news

Hey,

just writting to tell you about my progress. Went to pdoc yesterday and it was going suprinsigly well. She actually took time for me and I explained everything that's going on and she explained stuff as well.

Today I started taking 125mg of Lamictal and I will be on that dose for about 4 weeks. If I will see any positive changes but I won't be OK yet, then we'll rise the dose on 150 etc...

For my anxiety moments she prescribed me Rivotril, which (I read) is a benzodiazepine. She gave me 0,5 mg of that but said when I'll feel nervous I will only need about a quarter of this little pill. (I guess my situation isn't that severe?)

The philosophy is pretty simple. I started to notice some positive results from Lamictal. The minutes, hours and even days (!!!) when I am noticing I am my "true self" again are more often, also my family can see it. My family and pdoc as well said "you look like a flower", well and if my apperarance looks better, then things in my head will slowly be better as well I presume.

It is really hard to see any changes once your in this horrible circle of depression, anxiety, mood swings etc.. I do think family, partners, friends, everyone you love are the ones that can really see a progress. Even the pdoc agreed with that, she said, we can see what you can't. You are in all this, all nervous and tired of everything, but the people around you see you different.

I guess only people around you can truly see that your better or worse.

In case I won't feel any change for the better on 125mg of Lamictal, the pdoc said I'll lower the dose on 100mg again and add ABILIFY 5 mg per day. I have no idea what that drug is and I am seriously hoping that I'll stay on JUST Lamictal. Cus she said that Lamictal and Abilify might not work good together. So really I am puting all my hopes up on bigger dise of Lamictal and that's it.

Well here's my story. I hope that things will just be better from now on

Regards to you all!

Souds like things are definitely moving forward for you. That is good news In terms of meds everyone is different but I am on lamotrigine and aripiprazole together as well as some other meds and they work well - i have not had problems with combining the lamotrigine with aripiprazole. So if you need both hopefully you wont have problems- but it might be that the lamottrigine on its own will do the trick. Be careful with benzos as they are addictive and habit forming if used too frequently.

Hugs

Cracked

Hello Cracked and thanks for your reply

Yea I do hope good days are here for me. I don't really feel so good today cus I only took 25mg of Lamictal in morning so I am feeling a bit sleepy and ever more detached from the other world.

I am not that scared of trying even more meds, I hate the feeling od being in a bubble more and I am frustrated cus pdoc told me "get used of it". :/ :/ I mean hello how can anyone live like your in a movie all the time? It's extremly annoying not to feel the world like your in it and I am not sure I want to live my life like this :/ but is there any other way of not feeling this?

I was schocked to hear this yesterday and well she did say maybe it'll go away. It's true that yesterday in the afternoon (and everyone noticed that) I was myself, I hadn't been like that for nearly 2 years my family said and the derealization didn't bother me yesterday, didn't even feel it and didn't even think about who/how/why/what I am. I just was me and can't wait for more and more of that. Maybe than even this bubble which annoys me won't be so horrible and I won't be even aware that it's there...

I thank you for the advice on benzo, yeah, I read they are addictive, but like I said, small dosage of Lamictal, small dosage of benzo, hello? Like I'm a child but okay I guess that's good.

As for that med on A (forgot the name) we will see. I read it's an antipsychotic and I'm a bit scared of it...but we'll see, might not need it, and if I will, I hope it'll work even better for me.

Thanks Cracked for sharing your experiences with me. It does help to make me feel like I'm not alone. Wish you a nice day