Hi there is this bipolar 2 :
my natural state is not very energetic mellow can be happy a bit on the emotional side how ever some times i get bouts of irritability i mean like 3 to 4 days swearing having no patience hitting things just being angry at every thing and there is no real reason it seems to be that i just wake up like that. I have had deppressive episodes where i sleep like an animal hybernating contemplate dying see life only as dark find no enjoyment in any thing at all the best way i can describe it is completely disphoric and hopeless. but in january i had a period where i was really happy like LOVED life and LOVED every one and was energetic sleeping 6 hours per night was sufficient (for me very rare) and i got the great idea to sign a contract to rent an apartment even though i couldnt afford the bond and i couldnt afford the weekly rent as i was only working part time so i paid the letting fee days later my family explained to me what i had done and i started getting anxious about it. during this time i applied for lots of jobs and diplomas to study and a degree. In late february i recieved an email saying i was accpeted into the degree i accepted it and i started studying 5 days a week wroking both weekend days workin out at the gym for at least 2 hours a day almost every day and taking 2 hours drama class untill eventually i started getting burnt out and in april i had really bad anxiety and got depressed as i didnt know how i would continue all the things i needed to do. please help