choosing to restart meds, have a few concerns and general ve

I have been off meds for the last 7 months. After being overdose on medication for several years I decided I was going to reduce my medication to none, in order to figure out which symptoms were mine and what was a reaction to medication. I have been hypomanic since March and full blown mania since the middle of April. I have made the decision restart meds before I enter psychosis or crash into depression.
I've chosen to start with seroquel at 100mg working my way to 300mg over the next few months. I know the sedation over the next few weeks and possibly months are going to be difficult, but I need feel stable again.
I worried about trust issues I have with my partner, but I'm trying to just let go and be vulnerable, but I'm scared.
My partner is very supportive of my choices, but me being medicated to this extent will be something our relationship hasn't encountered yet. I'm afraid that he's going to wake up and realize life with me isn't worth putting up with the struggles of starting and trying to find the right combination of meds. I've tried finding helpful resources for him to help him with being my caregiver, just still nervous about what this may do to our relationship.
I know I'm in a much different place in my life with this illness, and have leaned some great coping skills along the way, but I still know that starting medication again will be a tough road.
Thanks for listening. This forum has always been a go to for support.

Are you restarting things with the advice of a Dr on how to do it as I strongly recommend you do so.

In terms of how your partner and you will cope with you being medicated i think that the most important thing is to keep communicating about what is going on with each other - I think as long as you talk to each other about things then you will get through this.

Please do any med changes with the supervision of a Dr if you are not already

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Yes it is all under a doctor's supervision
supervision

That is good to hear

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Bipolarinaz wrote:I have been off meds for the last 7 months. After being overdose on medication for several years I decided I was going to reduce my medication to none, in order to figure out which symptoms were mine and what was a reaction to medication. I have been hypomanic since March and full blown mania since the middle of April. I have made the decision restart meds before I enter psychosis or crash into depression.
I've chosen to start with seroquel at 100mg working my way to 300mg over the next few months. I know the sedation over the next few weeks and possibly months are going to be difficult, but I need feel stable again.
I worried about trust issues I have with my partner, but I'm trying to just let go and be vulnerable, but I'm scared.
My partner is very supportive of my choices, but me being medicated to this extent will be something our relationship hasn't encountered ye t. I'm afraid that he's going to wake up and realize life with me isn't worth putting up with the struggles of starting and trying to find the right combination of meds. I've tried finding helpful resources for him to help him with being my caregiver, just still nervous about what this may do to our relationship.
I know I'm in a much different place in my life with this illness, and have leaned some great coping skills along the way, but I still know that starting medication again will be a tough road.
Thanks for listening. This forum has always been a go to for support.

If he loves you I don't think it will be a problem. I found when I was not properly medicated I was a lot harder to live with. Whilst the road to getting to proper med doses and combos is hard I am sure he will realise that not only will you be more of a joy to live with but your relationship will be stronger

Well honestly this has started out way better than i could have ever hoped for. my sedation has been limited, slept for 12 hours the first night, 10ish the second night, and now down to a reasonable 6-8, only waking up once or twice a night, fighting the morning "hangover" feeling is my toughest obsticale, its way to easy to say ill just lay down for a minute and be out for another hour or two.
My bf has been very supportive and has been educating himself on bipolar. i think this will work out well for both of us.
as always thanks for all your support