by Ennui » Sun May 18, 2014 7:36 pm
Yes, I tend to believe I'm not bipolar when in a manic state, even though this can come and go within the episode. Last time when I was in hospital, I usually couldn't understand why they were giving me medication, as I was in a delusional state which I thought made me 'gifted' and I was also extremely paranoid.
In general though, when depressed or stable, I definitely think I have the correct diagnosis, even if this can be difficult to accept in terms of it being a chronic illness that carries a stigma.
In fact, I'd say it has tended to be others (e.g. family) who have had trouble accepting it. I had real difficulty when I first wanted to see a psychiatrist as a teenager because my parents didn't allow it, until I got so bad they had no choice. Even though they're as supportive as they can be, sometimes family members suggest I should be on less medication or even try going without it in the future (neither of which I think would be sensible!)
'Un ennui...' (Mallarmé)
'Perseverance is power' (Japanese proverb)
'All the world's a stage,/And all the men and women merely players'
Diagnoses: Bipolar affective disorder, GAD
Medications: 800mg Tegretol XR, 5mg Zyprexa