I like your question: "Why am I made this way?"
There are masses of shallow people who would never ask themselves the riddles of life.
You are a deep, sensitive, thoughtful person. Your question tells me that, even though there may not be an answer to the question.
Living through those hard times is very difficult, I know.
But you have hope, if not for a cure, then for a livable life.
When I had my worst crash, I learned a beautiful mantra in a therapy group I belonged to.
This little phrase has been my partner for the last 14 years. Here it is:
This is me.
I am here.
I am alive.
I will cope.
When things are bad, it aknowledges my place in life - me, here... and makes a commitment to live inspite of the disease - Cope.
When things are good, it aknowledges my place in life - me, here... and celebrates the life I have -
I am alive.... Life is good, life is livable. I keep these good feelings in a special place to use as weapons against depression when it comes. It doesn't defeat depression, but it preserves hope for the future.
Lots of people are bipolar. Look up this list. You need to scroll way down to the bottom of the page to see it.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_pe ... r_disorderIf that doesn't work, then just google: People with Bipolar
Take care,
It is not always possible to make someone's discomfort go away.
Sometimes, the best thing we can do is resist the urge to fix it and instead just say, "You, too?"