paranoia?

I always get the feeling when im around a lot of people that is no one is talking to me or if everyone leaves the room to go smoke a cigarette or eat that they don't want to be around me. that im weird or they don't like me. I always feel that i get left out of groups however my fiance says that i don't that im always making friends with everyone. I don't know if he is just being nice? But i just want to know why i get so jealous and paranoid when my fiance isnt always around me and when my friends aren't around me. why do i always feel so left out?

lillysmomma wrote:I always get the feeling when im around a lot of people that is no one is talking to me or if everyone leaves the room to go smoke a cigarette or eat that they don't want to be around me. that im weird or they don't like me. I always feel that i get left out of groups however my fiance says that i don't that im always making friends with everyone. I don't know if he is just being nice? But i just want to know why i get so jealous and paranoid when my fiance isnt always around me and when my friends aren't around me. why do i always feel so left out?

I wonder if this is related to self esteem? When I get paranoid delusions they are only there during the episode itself and resolve - it sounds like what you have going on is more long term than that. I also recognise this. When I was less well and had had less therapy too my self esteem was really bad and I was very insecure. I used to feel similar things to you and generally that ppl did not like me. It has taken getting more stable mood wise and also doing more therapy to get to a point where I am not so worried about this. I have also noticed I care less about what ppl think of me as I have got older.

How do you feel your self esteem is? Do you generally feel good about yourself or is this an issue for you?

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I get pretty paranoid too- it ranges from everyone hates me and is talking about me behind my back to the NSA (or whatever government agency is my favorite) is watching me, to KNOWING I am being spied on by my employer (right now they are definitely reading this-hi and don't fire me), or ghosts are real and going to get me. Yeah...I need a tinfoil hat some days

Anyhow, I think yes, what you are experiencing is paranoia but not outside the realm of normal. How much is this effecting your life? That question really determines if this is an issue.

I use to feel the same way you did... that people didn't like me and left me out of things.
I felt bad and sometimes, if it was part of a group project, it lasted for the length of time we were together.

Lots of talk therapy with a very soft spoken psychologist helped me.
Sorting out beliefs and reality can be challenging.
I think your fiance has a better take on reality in this case.
Trust his interpretation of things.

Take care,

I suggest talking to a therapist who can do cognitive behaviour therapy. It helped me manage my thoughts and feelings that nobody liked me, by teaching me to look at the situation logically.

Particularly when we are depressed, or anxious, there are certain types of illogical thinking that arise that worsen the cycle of low self esteem. There might be an underlying chemical issue that could be addressed.

I can't say for sure what is going on with you on such little information and obviously I am not qualified to make any diagnosis. But I believe that there is effective help for this issue.