Back on the forum, and better than ever.

I have recently been going to therapy for the past year. My therapist said i don't need therapy anymore. She said i'm doing great. My doctor, is going to start tapering me off my meds, and he is certain ill be ok when he does. I'm not sure how my personality will be off of meds, i have always been taking them since i was 4. early development for ADD, and now for Bipolar for the past 3 years. April 22nd marks the day i start coming off my meds. So i am wondering how my personality will be when i come off though. I know what i was like when i was 4. I remember having a college reading level and my psychologist said i had the maturity of a 30 year old.

Glad to hear you are doing well. Hope coming of the meds goes OK

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Some people think their "real" self manifests itself only when they are completely off medication.

I believe my "real" self shows itself now that I am stable on medication.
I do not like who I became when having manic or depressed episodes without medication.

I hope for your sake that you have no repeat episodes when off your meds, and that you live a normal life. It must be exciting to look forward to being drug free.

Take care,

Glad to see you back.

When I was 4 I read at a 10yo level. This is not quite the same thing as reading at a college level, and being considered very mature. But I think I can relate a little. You are still only a four year old. You are a little baby child and you have a lot yet to understand and learn about yourself and your world, and you are still entirely egocentric. But because you are reading you gain more knowledge and more abstract understanding which affects the way you are integrating the everyday stuff.

Relationships with other children are very difficult and frustrating. And so you are put in classes alongside older children, who aren't nearly as smart but they are much meaner. Or else you are made to be the peer tutor of the group, a role which you are not psychologically ready for either. You are prone to periods of depression as you start to realise that the nature of the world is not what it should be.

As you grow up you develop very high expectations of yourself and you forget, that you are just a child, or teenager, or young adult. It's a massive emotional strain and you deal with it either by withdrawing, by pretending to fit in, or trying to save the rest of the world rather than have a life.

Do you relate to any of this or is it just me?

I'm 20 now. meds mess with me too much. I am hoping my sex drive comes back after i stop taking it with the guidance of my doctor.

YEY!! Recovery is real!! I'm very happy to hear that things are going so well. Remember this moment for the future.