Accepting the diagnosis

Hi all.
Im new to this fourm and felt I needed some support.
In 2009 I was dianoised with Bipolar after a "psychotic break" I was treated by a home crisis team and spent 3 weeks in a half way house. Looking back I still can't remember everything and the parts that I do are rather embarrassing (although I do embarrass easily)
I was heavily medicated with seroquel and lithium.
After a few months I thought the medications were making me feel worse so I was weaned off them, even though the doctors recommended me not to.
Since then the only symptoms I have had was depression last year but that was situational and I didn't take any medication for it.
Anyway Im wondering if anyone else struggles to accept the diagnosis and any tips of accepting it?
Thank you in advance

Peace