Hello my name is daniel, I am 17 and about to turn 18. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 disorder. I have been on medication since I was 6 (amxiety). When I was about 15 I started to feel very drastic mood shifts. I had no idea what it was. My doctor and parents now know I have bipolar. I have been switched around on medications all the time.
My current medications are: Saraquel 300mg PM
Lymictal 200mg PM
Welbutron 150mg AM
Zoloft 150mg AM
I do not notice anything except for saraquel. Saraquel knocks me out and keeps me ""asleep"" or distant.
I was raised in a great environment and I don't have any family issues or any kind of hardships besides psychological issues.
2 months ago I was admitted to a psych hospital for suicidal thoughts and intentions. After I was discharged I really did not feel any different.
I have tried Marijuana, and immidiatley noticed it is hard to think about the past or anything unimportant. I'm saying this because I know for me it really does help. Of course I only use it when I need it. I also don't like a lot of it. Just enough to help me keep my head on right.
I feel very good, even if I'm not "on it" I still feel better because it does help me. Yes I am guilty using it and I know it is illigal, but if it helps me and I am the only one who knows that why would I resist and keep the pain inside. That's all I do. I keep the pain inside
I guess I can't tell anyone and I have to wait to get my med card. Any advice?