Feeling horrible

I just posted but I think I got cut off.

I feel horrible. I feel like I'm procrastinating. In a way I'm not, I'm taking baby steps today. But for me it's not enough. I have deadlines and I'm not near getting them done, even though I'm taking baby steps.

I HATE the whole "paralysis" thing in depression. When you don't feel like doing anything. It can really backfire in my life. I not be doing as badly as I think; I have a tendency to either beat myself up or catastrophize. I'm hard on myself and my life. I just don't feel like doing anything (pay bills, make business calls) and eventually that catches up with you and there are consequences.

I feel awful. In some ways its not my fault I'm procrastination. I had several terrible things out of my control happen in the last few months. So maybe it makes sense I'm down. But I'm doing too much-- school, work, and other things in a "too much" way. It's possible that anyone in my shoes would be this way right now.

anyway, I'm posting b/c I want to feel better. I don't yet. Blah

I swear this is not another account of mine, but this is EXACTLY how I am feeling at the moment. Big hugs, Applepear.

Big hugs to both of you

I hope this passes soon. applepear what treatment are you getting- do you think it is enough? Sounds like you maybe need more input than what you are getting.

Take good care

Hugs

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