Can't hack life.

I have watched a lot of TED talks today and this one reminded me of your post:
https://www.ted.com/talks/jane_mcgoniga ... rs_of_life

Watch it, and try to gain some "power ups" during your day. Perhaps that will be helpful?

Hey, if anyone really cares I am still around. I have been extremely busy. While busy I am have little time to worry about how much I hate myself.
I do see a psych but only once a month. Maybe I should go more often as it does make me feel somewhat better afterwards. I have too much inside of me though. No one knows all that I do and all that I feel. It is very overwhelming. Not just all that I deal with but the fact that I have to internalize it. Writing helps a little but I am not even 100 percent honest in my own journal.
It all comes down to the fact that I hate myself and I hate my life.