Struggling

A year ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I (Rapid Cycling) along side GAD, Panic Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and PTSD. Things get better for 4-5 weeks and then I crash again into mixed episodes. It is really taking a toll and making me obsessive with thoughts of suicide. Its not something I hide from my psychologist because I know if I stop talking about these thoughts Ill be more likely to act. I do hide as much as possible from those around me. Im just exhausted. Does this get easier? We are still trying to find the right meds but I am so burnt out on all the effort I use to struggle through the days.

Aww, I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. I remember when I got diagnosed and then my pdoc was trying all kinds of medications for me. I just thought nothing would fix me and that I had lost my mind. I didn't know what to do. Well, in my case, it took a hospitalization to get it right. The doctor there had bipolar himself. He took one look at my meds, said they were all too low of a dosage to do anything, and then went on to raise all the dosages. I quickly felt better. I had to go through kind of a recovery period and take some time to get to know the "new" me. But the meds have made all the difference. The hospitalization was a blessing in diguise.

So please hang in there. I know you feel like you are stuck on a merry-go-round that won't stop. But it will. Once they gets your meds right you will be just fine. Please hang in there. I get the chills just thinking how hard it was when they were trying all kinds of meds to get me sane. But there is life after that. I'm saying a prayer for you and I wish you only the best.

ANewBeginning wrote:Does this get easier?

I'm glad to say it does get easier. Just hang in there.
Keep trusting your psychologist and take your prescriptions as prescribed.
The right mixture and dosage is out there. You and your psychiatrist will work together to find the magic combination.

Take care,

This probably won't make you feel any better, but I am going through the same. It is exhausting, supreme fatigue, every day, especially since my medication is not working yet.
Hopefully, it will get better for the both of us. For me, at least it is nice to know someone else is going through a similar struggle.

Getting stable post diagnosis can be so difficult and tiring and rough on you. There is hope tho and it does get easier. It took a while for me to get a treatment plan which helped but it did happen and things will get better for you too - give it time and lean on your support structure. Keep talking here too if it helps you

Hugs

Cracked

Thank you all.

It is rough. It is draining and for the most part I feel like Im suffering in silence. I have very few I can talk to and I try not to talk about how consumed my thoughts are with suicide. The only time I talk about that is when Im with my doctors. Its a relief to be able to open up and let that pain out. I feel like Im destroying my life trying to cope. Its very difficult.