How do you start over again...

Hey everybody,
So I have been dealing with the downside of my bipolar disorder...major depression and it has lasted around 10mths this time around. I no longer work full time nor do I really interact with the outside world. I was wondering how do I start over again. I mean I have lost all of my friends and have nothing anymore.
I need a major change in my life and Im just not sure how to go about it. I need my car fixed, I need my own place and I need a job....but where do I start its all so overwhelming to me....I don't have the confidence right now to feel capable of changing anything other then what Im doing right now......

I find that getting in a routine and setting goals helps me. Exercise helps my mood tremendously and Vitamin D is supposed to help the winter blues when you can't get outside in the sun.

Thank you for your response.
Yes I actualy just started exercising and have noticed it has been making a difference. In my confiden e as well as mentaly. Im just so behind with my life. Im almost 30 and have nothing to show for my life besides a beautiful baby boy. I just wish I could be manic for a while...because I get stuff done. In my depression phase I could care less about anything. He really suffers because I dont take him to do anything and I dont have any friends that have kids so he doesnt socialize either. IDK...Im just down. And have no idea where to begin unraveling this huge mess in my head. Ill pick up dome vitamin d hopefully it will help me. thanks

Raindropz wrote:Hey everybody,
So I have been dealing with the downside of my bipolar disorder...major depression and it has lasted around 10mths this time around. I no longer work full time nor do I really interact with the outside world. I was wondering how do I start over again. I mean I have lost all of my friends and have nothing anymore.
I need a major change in my life and Im just not sure how to go about it. I need my car fixed, I need my own place and I need a job....but where do I start its all so overwhelming to me....I don't have the confidence right now to feel capable of changing anything other then what Im doing right now......

Hi

I am sorry ton hear you have been going through depression- it is tough. Nearly six years ago I made a suicide attempt injecting myself with drugs I stole from work and ended up in the psych ward. In time I lost my job and currently my registration too and lost practically all of my friends. I am still picking up the pieces but there are some things I do, as well as the most important thing which is taking one baby step at a time rather than pushing yourself too much. I have become involved in a lot of music stuff which I enjoy very much- the thing is as well with interests is that one thing leads to another and soon you have started making new friends- in my case many of them are much more understanding of MH stuff than my old friends and colleagues were- which is a really good thing in terms of understanding and support. I also have got pretty involved in church life which offers friendship and support too. I volunteer too tho have not managed to successfully get back to any work yet. But YOU CAN DO IT! Take it one small step at a time and you will get there. I know it seems like an awful lt to deal with but you will get there.

Hugs

Cracked

Thanks so much for giving me hope that this to shall pass. I often wonder if Im the only one struggling with life. It gives me comfort knowing that Im not alone in this anymore because I can talk openly to whoever reads these posts without judgment.
Im so sorry you went through such hard times. I can only imagine the pain and suffering that you had to deal with. Kudos to you for rising above and beyond and coming to terms with your life. That takes a very strong person.
I hope that a miracle happens and I to can rise above this hard and very painful phase in my life. I have started a wee bit better lately but that's because like you said I made some small changes...well actually a very big one. I also suffer from bulimia and its been 3weeks since I changed my habits. I feel sooo much better already. My hair was actually starting to get pretty thin and it was scaring me. My skin has cleared up a lot and I have a lot more energy during the day. Which now I have incorporated exercise into my routine.
I guess I now just have to concentrate on fighting this horrible depression and getting back on track. I honestly wish I could just move away. I have ignored so many people in the last year and I don't want to have to face them. They wont understand if I say Oh I was depressed sorry....
Anyways Im getting sleepy and will just start rambling on. thanks again crackedgirl:)

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HUgs to you

Raindropz wrote:Thanks so much for giving me hope that this to shall pass. I often wonder if Im the only one struggling with life. It gives me comfort knowing that Im not alone in this anymore because I can talk openly to whoever reads these posts without judgment.

You are welcome- it will pass for sure



You can def talk openly here

Raindropz wrote:Im so sorry you went through such hard times. I can only imagine the pain and suffering that you had to deal with. Kudos to you for rising above and beyond and coming to terms with your life. That takes a very strong person.

Thank you - I wanted to share it with you to try to show that things can get better and there is hope.

Raindropz wrote:I hope that a miracle happens and I to can rise above this hard and very painful phase in my life. I have started a wee bit better lately but that's because like you said I made some small changes...well actually a very big one. I also suffer from bulimia and its been 3weeks since I changed my habits. I feel sooo much better already. My hair was actually starting to get pretty thin and it was scaring me. My skin has cleared up a lot and I have a lot more energy during the day. Which now I have incorporated exercise into my routine.

Wow that is a brilliant achievement. I had bulimia as a teen with a big of hangover into adulthood. It is difficult to change habits and behaviour and that is so good that you are managing this. Congratulations

Raindropz wrote:I guess I now just have to concentrate on fighting this horrible depression and getting back on track. I honestly wish I could just move away. I have ignored so many people in the last year and I don't want to have to face them. They wont understand if I say Oh I was depressed sorry....

Maybe try talking to them -they might understand

Hope you slept

Hugs

Cracked

the best thing I feel anyone can do is to take things honestly one single day at a time. This is totally what I had to do in my life.

I just had to make a decision to get rid of two of my best friends out of my life....and not interact with them anymore.

its already proving really hard but I just have to, I also just started a new job and I have a lot of hidden anxiety and built up pressure about doing well in this job.

so I am fairly stressed out about things in my life right now. But I am trying really hard to just deal with things, I ended up kind of camped out at my boyfriends today sort of hiding from the world as so to speak....but I am trying to just simply live day by day at this point as best I simply can.