electricbipolar wrote:Thanks for the idea, but It's not that I don't believe my parents. They are not hostile. Actually they are very supportive. And they only tell me what I ask about. Sometimes if it was awful, all they will say is, "There's a reason you don't remember that. It's because you don't need to." And I'm okay with that. If it was that bad, I really don't want to know.
If I carry and record all of our conversations while I'm manic or in a mixed state or depression, I'm the one that would suffer, having to hear all the weird things that I said while I was out of my mind. I'd rather not have that on record, lol. Thanks, though, it was nice of you to help, handfull. I appreciate it!
You have no reason to believe your parents. No matter how close we are with someone, we should always remember, that everyone has their own interests and people often see us the way they want us to be, but not the way we are. Especially our parents, to them you are their daughter/son, rarely - you yourself.
In manic state we are very weakened and many people will exploit that.
You can see this as a blessing in a way, because you can observe and decide who really cares for you.
This is where the recording or documenting things (diary is an option, but your memory might not be fresh enough when you finally get the hold on a pen) come into play. Since recording will not tell us lies like some people do. Not to mention all the dellusions we tell ourselves.
But you must have a bit of bravery, since truth is not always present.
If you have a while to think, ask yourself, how come you turned bipolar in the first place if everyone around you is so kind and supportive?