I stayed up and didn't sleep a lot, plus lots of caffeine, fish oil, natural supplements for probably a week. Could any of those things actually accidentally trigger mania?
Before that, I was quite depressed. Didn't get anything done, sat around all day, racing thoughts.
After that week, I suddenly felt like I *had* to do everything *now*. Stayed up late again (cleaned the kitchen at 3 a.m., spent the night cleaning out my closet, stayed up every night painting, etc.). Felt like my mind was completely spinning. Couldn't focus at work, couldn't watch TV, couldn't talk to people, couldn't write well.... mind was spinning, and those things were just too slow to handle. Isolated myself. Went out and explored the area randomly for hours....farther I had been out of the house in months. Felt compelled to do anything and everything that I could. Spent more money than I should have. Felt like I maybe could really achieve my goals and felt just... driven. Completely wired.
Then this week got depressed again. Walking across the house is more than I can bring myself to do most of the time. My mind is still spinning and I can't focus at all on work. I've gotten nothing done this week. Just dark thoughts and depression and being tired and racing thoughts. Self-isolating from everyone I know again, still racing thoughts, and just gloomy and lame.
I'm just wondering if
1) is it possible to accidentally trigger mania with sleep/caffeine/fish oil, and
2) can episodes back and forth really be so quick? A week or less each?
Just wondering if anyone can relate, or if this sounds possible. Not asking for a diagnosis.
I don't have a psychiatrist or a GP doctor, and can't get one. Literally no way to afford it, no health insurance, but I don't qualify for any low-income or Medicaid or community clinic programs. I've tried for 2 years to find one, but don't quality. Already lowered expenses as much as possible, got roommates, garage sales, additional jobs (can't find one that includes healthcare), etc., but it's not enough- so I can't spring for paying for a doctor out of pocket. Healthcare reform didn't actually cut my cost of healthcare, and I can't afford it. So, I'm on my own here, with zero chance of seeing a doctor of any variety... likely for at least another year. I have to figure this out myself, as there's literally no other option. I've tried everything. Just putting that out there, as I tend to get frustrated and defeated when people say "see a doc" when I absolutely cannot find a way to see one. I have to figure out how to maintain my sanity until I can actually get professional help, and that probably won't be until 2015.

Can anyone relate?
Is it really possible to accidentally throw yourself into mania with just sleep/supplements/caffeine?