Part of my problem...broken hearted

I am relatively new around here but if you're familiar with me you probably know that I am depressed and pretty negative. I am also pretty guarded about my personal problems. I continue to struggle and I just wanted to say that my heart was broken, about 6 months ago.
It sucks! It hurts so bad and I want it to stop. I have never experienced heartache to this extent. Just thought I'd put that out there because it is part of why I am such a miserable bastard.

It takes courage to say those words. I sincerely hope your heart can mend and you can move on. It's totally understandable that you feel negative. No worries. We still like you.

Life looks so rosey when there is love in the air,
And it is so bleek when that love ends.

I don't know if it will help, but I can say I know what you are going through because I have been there. I dare say most of us have experienced it to one degree or another.

Would you believe I still have the 39 year old newspaper clipping of the wedding announcement of my first real love? She reconnected with a childhood sweetheart who came home after several years abroad so from her perspective we were only ever "just friends" but I was really smitten.

It took me five years to be able to drive by the highway exit to her house without getting a lump in my throat.

Now I just remember the happy times we played and danced together. In fact I don't remember anything else.

So Wretched1 you are not alone. Accept your grief, remember the good times, and let go of what is lost.

Take care,

Hey wretched, hang in there. Everyone has been there one time or another. This feeling will get better as time goes on, that's a given. Grief sucks but it takes time to heal from it.

Take care.
Jake

Hey

I am so sorry to hear that things are difficult for you with your personal life. It is really difficult when a relationship ends and it feels like things will never be good again. There is a lot of grieving to be done but you will get through that and come out the other side. it does take time tho so be patient with yourself and very kind to yourself too. Let us know if there is anything we can do to help you with this

Hugs

Cracked

Thanks all for the words of encouragement. I know I am not the first, only, or last one to have a bbroken heart. My feelings are just so heavy right now, and it intensifies my feelings of failure. The real physical pain caused by mental anguish amazes me. I know that life does not have to be over, I am just so tired. Thanks for listening and lending support.

Update: It just keeps getting worse. I could not have imagined the twists and falls my life has been taking. I am so afraid of becoming calloused but I feel it is the only way to survive. I want so badly for my life to be over. I just want the hurt to stop. No one seems to know because I have to internalize it, but the blows come from every direction. I come here to be heard. I'm dying inside. Please stop ######6 hurting me!