directional confusion

I was diagnosed over 2 yrs ago and am still not on stable meds for bp. I had to moved 1,000 miles to my parents home like a child and go on disability because I couldn't take care of myself. My whole family thinks I'm lazy and is not afraid to say it, while 1/2 of them suffer from similar problems but not as bad and don't take care of them selves.

I don't know if I'm supposed to get better or just improved. I feel pressure from my parents that now is the time that I should be well and working. Every vision I have for a job, that would give me some passion, they think it would be too much for me and direct me down another path. I just don't feel right 'cause I look ahead and see myself blaming them because they wouldn't let me make decisions. Or do I need a push

I've had a lot of tramatic events happen that I'm dealing with along with bp but how long has it taken some of you to get back to work?

I dont quite know how your feeling or what you've been though. I think its important for you to find a job you like but remember you dont want to overload yourself. Maybe try getting part time job or work half time then move to full time or something. Try not to feel mad or blame your parents it sounds like they are just trying to help... everyone has there ideas of what will work out best.
Take what the say in to consideration but remember you should make the decision yourself. Make small goals first so it will make it feel like a easer task like make a goal to have 1 job interview a day or something like that.
I dont know how long it has taken other people to recover and start working but i suppose it dosint matter you are not the same as other people.
good luck