Here We Go Again

Okay, I need some opinions here. I've had this happen before (actually just recently) and it lasted for about a week and a half. It's happening again and I'm worried. I'm just going to list some things...

-racing thoughts about suicide (among other things - they kind of come in waves and don't last very long, but it's worrisome)
-severely depressed
-agitated
-restless
-paranoid (again, this sort of comes in waves, but the thoughts are there and very bothersome)
-can't stop moving (pacing all over the house)
-too much energy
-full of rage (intermittently)

Anyone ever had something similar to this before? I'm assuming it's something like a mixed episode, but I know psychiatrists who are by the book would most likely say otherwise. I took some Clonazepam and it's starting to kick in, so I've calmed down a bit, but I'm still kind of freaking out.

Would anyone suggest I admit myself? I just hate waiting for 4+ hours to talk to someone. I'd rather be at home where I'm comfortable.

Hi, yes i've experienced those symptoms many times. Sometimes waiting around in a clinic or hospital for hours and hours makes stuff worse as you have guessed already.
Do you have anyone that can come round? Often having someone there to distract you is the best thing you can have, someone who can talk to you and take your mind off things till you calm down.

Thanks for the reply!

I've calmed down a lot since my parents got home. We had dinner and I talked things out with them. The Clonazepam also worked wonders for me.

Hi Nupy,

Have you tried exercising when you feel like this? I get some of the symptoms you mention and going for a long cycle can sometimes make me feel better.

What kind of paranoia do you experience, as a matter of interest?

Last time this happened to me, I cleaned my entire house at double-speed. Washed all the windows and doors, mopped floors, etc. It took a few hours to calm down and my house looked much better. (Of course this advice works better when you live on your own and it's middle of the day than when you have a family and it's 3am.)

Hugs Nupy!

darkroses wrote:What kind of paranoia do you experience, as a matter of interest?

Hey darkroses, thanks for the reply.

My paranoia generally consists of people watching my every move and trying to hurt/kill me. I have an obsession about someone planting a car bomb on my car.

oliveira wrote:Last time this happened to me, I cleaned my entire house at double-speed. Washed all the windows and doors, mopped floors, etc. It took a few hours to calm down and my house looked much better. (Of course this advice works better when you live on your own and it's middle of the day than when you have a family and it's 3am.)

Hugs Nupy!

Hey Oliveira, thanks for the reply!

I ended up going to the gym and working out harder than I ever have before. It didn't help much initially, but I've been slacking on the gym a bit and I was happy to get out and get a workout in.

that sounds like what i have been experiencing for the most part. it sucks. hang in there. what type of paranoia? i get that from my BPD.

TheManyFacesOfMe wrote:that sounds like what i have been experiencing for the most part. it sucks. hang in there. what type of paranoia? i get that from my BPD.

It does suck. It's the most uncomfortable feeling.

My paranoia has become less severe over the past couple of years, but it generally consists of people wanting to hurt/kill me or my neighbours are watching me and plotting things. When it gets really bad, I start thinking my parents are after me, which can be a little scary, seeing as I live with them. I hate paranoia...

-- Fri Mar 08, 2013 8:27 pm --

Didn't realize I wrote twice about my paranoia.