Something That Shocked Me

I'll keep it short. My anxiety and depression tend to go hand in hand, mainly because of the rumination during my depressive states. Rumination equals anxiety for me, as I tend to worry about never getting my life together when I'm depressed, among other things.

I have a ton of anxiety. Sometimes I can't keep my rings on my fingers because all of a sudden they feel constricting and make me tense. Sometimes I am panicking about things almost constantly and what seems like an inconvenience to someone else is a catastrophe to me. In some ways it seems to control my life; I am never completely relaxed, and I clench my jaw a lot, or keep my muscles very stiff unless I consciously make an effort not to. It gets in the way a good bit.

I actually sought out treatment for anxiety first through a general practitioner. He was the one who first suspected Bipolar disorder. Crippling anxiety and agoraphobia, when I get depressed, it's anxiety city. When I recover, it's mostly gone.

Not at all surprising to me, not one bit, I had anxiety before i was diagnosed ansd still have it over things all the time.

Not just big things but silly things. The biggest anxiety trigger I have (I know this because all the staff at the school I work at are forbidden to say it) is "Can we have a chat". Sets me off and then the anxiety leads to either depression or (Hypo)Mania, every single time.

Oooooh yeah, big time. Initially, as a child, before the bipolar became apparent, I was diagnosed with a combo of anxiety and depression. The depression was really bipolar, but the anxiety is definitely still there. Actually, aparently some of that has morphed to OCD now, according to my psichiatrist... great.

Either way, I frequently have anxiety attacks about trivial things all the time- like thinking I'm going to fail a class because I couldn't complete a homework worksheet correctly. This is magnified during extremes of both states- in a way, you can kinda tell how severe my state is by how anxious I get, I suppose.

yeah, anxiety is what keeps me from living a normal life, right now. I've learned to deal with everything else, but I'm helpless whenever I get into a situation where I'm not 100% sure what's going to happen. I can't go to school, I can't even pick up a school book. I'm pretty much lost when it comes to how to get my anxiety under control.