A mess

Hello to everyone.
My name is Des and i have recently been diagnosed with bipolar 2.
I am 29 years old now and also have diabetes type 1.
Last year i tried to comit sucicide and this was my first tell tell sign something was really up.
All my life i have always been up and down and its been a rollar coaster ride.
I had allot of problems with my dad and fights.
I have accepted that i have this and all the signs are correct in my case.
My problem lies with my mood swings.
I am going out with the most beautiful lady ever and i cant seem to control my swing.
I have never been physical towards her nor ever would be but its the sillest things i get upset for.
I am only taking meds one week now and realise that it will take time to get right.
Today started off great , we got up baked and painted then i took her on a driving lesson and then went to the shops.I had asked her if she wanted to go out tonight and dance and have fun and she said yes.The problem arouse when we were invited to a friend of hers.she said to me that he wanted a calm night but as usual i got pissed with her and siad i would not go because i was being accused of wanting to have a night of crap.I dont know why i do this but i do know that it hurts her .'So here i am sitting at home alone now in a mess as usual.I have not felt like talking to anyone at all.Its getting to the stage where she has enough and i get it she deserves to be treated so good.I cant seem to control my silly episodes at all.Like valentines day i had everything perfect then that night i got pissed cause she had to ring her ex for a min to sort something.I know this should not be a big deal at all but could not control myself and the way it made me feel.
The real problem is these episodes ,if they dont stop we wont last which breaks my heart because i truly love her.
I am open to any helpful tips that can help me to see things in a better light and control my silly temper.
what scares me most is my thoughs of how i dont know if i could truly go on if this fell apart.I know it sounds selfish but i cant stop the thoughs no matter how hard i try.She knows everything about me but i know its not easy for her as such a small thing can be made a huge deal.I really dont want to live my life like this.
Sorry for all the blabber but talking to a screen seems easier at the minute.
I truly want to get back on track and show her how much i truly love her and want her in my life.

Hi Des and Welcome!

I went ahead and moved your thread to the bipolar forum, leaving a shadow thread in anger management, so you can get support from more people. Both forums are appropriate for your thread and I think you'll find the bipolar forum is a very active and supportive place.

Take care,
Jan

Thank you very much
God knows i need help.