How to tell my mom I am not okay?

So...here's the deal.... My depressions and hypomanic episodes started when I was 14...It was really a tough time for me, I was self harming at this age, when my mom found out she was soo mad, she took me to the doctor...I didn't get an actual diagnose , but the doctor said I have many symptoms of bipolar disorder, but my mood swings might be caused by my puberty and it is possible I will grow up from it. She also said that to be sure, she will make some more tests and gave me antidepresants that made me feel better for a shor time. So better, that my mom thought I don't need them or the doctor anymore and I simply will grow up from my moods... But it didn't happen. It's been 5 years fighting with my moods, myself, my life...I can't handle it anymore. Everything just got worse, it just harder and harder to control myself mostly when I am on my lows I am really suicidal... I just don't know how to say it to my mom...I know she will be dissapointed and sad, I don't want to do it to her

Well in these 5 years of you battling episodes, I'm sure your mom has noticed if she was already getting you treatment for a problem before. Just have her sit down with you and let her know that you have been having a tough time and need help again. She may be sad, but remember that it is not your fault. She certainly shouldn't be disappointed in you for looking for help when you need it. More than likely she will be proud of you for being able to admit that you need help.

Try not to worry about hurting your parents, they are tougher than you might think. As their child, all they want is to see you grow up happy and functional, and means that they accepted the responsibility to take care of you and any problems you are having. You aren't "doing" anything to your mother by putting your problem out in the open, except for possibly providing relief to her if she already suspects something is wrong but is nervous about bringing it up.

I too was in your position at one point, and before I could talk to my mom in a rational manner I started crying for no reason in her car and had to tell her I wasn't feeling right. Even with the less fortunate situation and near hysterical depression I was placed in, she reacted calmly and rationally.

Hi, first I wanted to say that from a parent perspective, typically it's helpful when your child is honest and open with you. It can also be scary because as a parent you always want your child to be safe. Mental Illness and the kinds of symptoms you describe is unsettling for the person that is experiencing it, and the people who love you for they have to witness it.

My first question is you stated it started at 14 and it's been 5 years, so you should be over 18 now and you could seek medical assistance on your own, correct? The trick is you need to give medication time to start to work, and you need to find a doctor that really listens to you and is helpful (and knowledgeable). The pattern many patients find themselves exhibiting is that once medication starts to work, and you start to do better, you think I don't need the medication or the doctor anymore and stop. That's a mistake. It's the catch-22 that many people fall victim to.