Please Can I Have Some Support?

whyareyoulookingatme wrote:You know what scares most people most? It's making a change in their life.

Yes!

When I was hypomanic last year/this year I became fearless, and I used that to make a lot of changes in my life. I had loads of people come to me and praise me to the skies for being so brave/creative/amazing. Yet because I had no fear, it felt very easy to do. Now that I am depressed, changes are pressed on me rather than me having control over them. I am still fearless, but those are much less enjoyable.

You took control, Cracked, and I can't command you enough on that. *hug*

Thank you so much

You know I was thinking that since I was 5 there had always been something that has been "protecting me" from feelings and moods and things and def against anxiety. Self harm, eating disorder, alcohol at uni, drugs, a mixture of these - that are my thing and my secret and my way of dealing with things.

I think that the thought of not having this anymore in the future is really scary but I will try hard to do it.

Huge hugs guys

Cracked

I relate to you wanting to protect yourself from how you feel Cracked. We have seriously intense emotions and mood shifts and it can be overbearing. Just keep remembering it's ok to do stuff for yourself, to better yourself so you have a better future. Sometimes we should all take a break and think about ourselves and what we can do to become a better person. You got this!

Thank you so much honey - I really appreciate it. It is nice for me to know you can relate tho I am sorry that you can- but thank you for your understanding - thank you all for this

Huge hugs

Cracked

*support*

Thank you hon - I appreciate it a lot. I hope you are doing OK.

Huge hugs

Cracked

CrackedGirl wrote:I hope you are doing OK.

i am doing ok

Hang in there. Like a lot of things, it might get worse before it gets better, but it always gets better. I hope that you're able to get this meeting sorted out sooner rather than later, and I hope that they don't just stop your meds cold turkey. That would just be terrible. You're doing the right things to further your recovery. No one said that recovery was easy, but it's definitely worth it!

Hi Cracked Girl, just offering support and hugs to you. I know emotions can be a very difficult thing to handle. I too self medicate, mostly having the occasional drink. Lately that has not been working and I have been very distressed with emotions and uncontrollable crying... but I do believe we can come out the other side, stronger. I am slowly learning more effective ways to cope with my emotions focusing on DBT skills that my therapist is introducing me to but its a battle at times to implement them. I think what is so confusing is that I try to have the emotion (okay more the emotion takes over), but get so swept up in distress that I don't know whether the process is helpful release or more traumatizing... I don't know if this relates to you. All I can say is that you are supported, keep breathing, going for walks and posting. Hopefully the physical side of the addiction and withdrawal will end soon although I fully understand you are concerned about the psychological aspect of not using the substance/s. Keep hanging in there you are a strong woman!

CrackedGirl wrote:Thank you so much

You know I was thinking that since I was 5 there had always been something that has been "protecting me" from feelings and moods and things and def against anxiety. Self harm, eating disorder, alcohol at uni, drugs, a mixture of these - that are my thing and my secret and my way of dealing with things.

I think that the thought of not having this anymore in the future is really scary but I will try hard to do it.

Huge hugs guys

Cracked

I can relate to this so much. It's one of the reasons it took so long to diagnose my bipolar. I always hid behind my 'coping skills'

I'm learning to get over this now and it is hard but it is also possible.
Keep fighting cracked x

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CrackedGirl wrote:Thank you so much

You know I was thinking that since I was 5 there had always been something that has been "protecting me" from feelings and moods and things and def against anxiety. Self harm, eating disorder, alcohol at uni, drugs, a mixture of these - that are my thing and my secret and my way of dealing with things.

I think that the thought of not having this anymore in the future is really scary but I will try hard to do it.

Huge hugs guys

Cracked

I can relate to this so much. It's one of the reasons it took so long to diagnose my bipolar. I always hid behind my 'coping skills'

I'm learning to get over this now and it is hard but it is also possible.
Keep fighting cracked x