For background, the past month I've been mood journaling, and the pattern right now seems to be 2-3 days way too far up (racing thoughts, insomnia, impulsive spending/behavior, rage, irritability, hyper-productive, and SUPER paranoid, often of things I don't even believe exist, esp at night), 2-3 days WAY too far down (suicidal, worthless, miserable, can't get out of bed or eat or talk), and then 2-4 days of being "normal" in a state of emotional hangover. Then repeat. This has been going on since September, and I was pretty normal for a couple months before that. I had issues in late spring, though, too, and mid-winter, so in that sense, it is the usual 3-5 times a year; it's just that each round is a whole bunch of cycling instead of just one mood swing.

Basically, my question is this: is rapid cycling something new, that older pdocs wouldn't know about? What's the deal? From what I've read, some bipolars have moods move from one to another within a single DAY. I've had depressions last months and (hypo?)manias last up to 9 days. My mood chart looks like a heartbeat readout and they're basically telling me that the only thing that'll help me is talk therapy, even though I'm having suicidal thoughts at least once a week (whether up or down). :/