by mindykay » Wed Oct 31, 2012 2:43 pm
Thanks everyone! I was just wondering, because I think sometimes I might be delusional lol!
Example (this has somewhat abated after 3 years marriage):
Any time my husband would spend time with his family (mother especially, but sister and brother too) I felt like he wanted to move back home, that he regretted marrying me. He told me many times that was not so, but I couldn't shake the belief that it was so. I would get so angry inside and try to hide it and hold it in (successful a lot of the time). Mind you, these are very nice thoughtful people. They never did really anything to make me feel this way, other than that my hubby lived at home til we got married, he was age 30. I would feel sometimes like they all hated me, although they never gave me any reason to think so. Sometimes I would think they were against me, like I stole him away. All this while, they were nothing but good to me. But the thoughts and feelings persisted no matter how I tried to shake them.
Also, about the telephone. I absolutely have a phone phobia!! It's my enemy!! I get all shaky when I have to be on it (texting isn't really a problem, just voice calls). I always feel as if the person on the other end is somehow mad at me, and I'm afraid to answer it. It very much impedes my business, and sometimes strains family ties. I will even avoid my family's calls. I never check my messages, I am overcome with fear. I have some social anxiety, not sure if it's clinical or not. Sometimes I can be very outgoing, and you'd never in a million years know I struggle like I do.
Dx: ADHD / Generalized Anxiety Disorder / Bipolar II