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I have been struggling with my binge eating disorder for almost a year now, and until this day, i had no idea that I was not alone in my odd eating routine! All the factors and symptoms that are key to this eating disorder - that's me in a nutshell. I can't tell you how weird this is to find out that what i thought was just my own weird probem, is in fact shared by many, many people all over the world! INsane! Well anyways.. Hello to everyone and here is my tale.. beginning of high school was good.. i found a boy i thought was perfect for me, school itself was easy, and life was good. Thenn my guy decides he wants to go out with someone else, and they are still together today. I didnt care at the time but about a year later.. i dont really know why, i guess to impress people of something, i became pretty skinny.. and as bad as it seems, that was the happiest time of my life. Thenn I realised that becoming skinny did not solve all my problems, school became harder, and all of a sudden, i switched from semi-anorexic mode to eatallyoucan asfastasyoucan mode. And it hasnt stopped. Here i am, in my final year of high school.. and i am the unhappiest i have ever been.. i thought i was going to turn my life around in the new year, and i had.. unTIL this morning, and i am currently writing this on an over-stuffed stomach. I've gone from the top of my school to struggling to get an 80 this year.. i just feel like im at a physical, mental, and..emotional/social low evveryday, becuase each day i feel worse. I'll do well for a few days and then back to the fridge i go. I keep telling myself i'm just in a rut and things will get better once i lose weight or something.. but a year is a prettty long time to be in a "rut" and i know from experience that things dont necessarily get better when you lose weight, so i guess i just have lack of reason or drive to leave my binge-eating days. Well thanks for listening to me vent! good luck to everyone else!

you said things don't necessarily get better when you lose weight.............if you are overweight....or on the road to becoming such.....getting a HEALTHY handle on your weight and health can improve how you feel...not only psyically, but mentally as well. when you loose weight in an unhealthy manner.....you might feel good in that you are a certain size and can wear certain clothes....but you don't feel good pysically or emotionally because you damamged your body to get thin instead of taking it on the healthy track.


Now having said that....yes....there is much more to life then your weight. Being a certain size...looking a certain way....that shouldn't be your whole focus or determining factor on what makes for a good life.....surrounding yourself in diet mode...or w/ food.....theres so much more that makes you "YOU"! Friends, your education, family (and not in this order), a good education, a job you really enjoy waking up for, even your faith in God, etc. etc. Each is just one piece of the puzzle that makes up your life as a whole. No one piece should be the whole...all the pieces together should create that.