I found a cure, can anyone else inspire help post here

Believe me I know where you are all coming from and I know it's so difficult, I fear i'll revert, yesterday was time of the month and I felt so bloated and thought I'm fat my clothes don't fit, but this morning I'm skinny again.

I'm so much happier not worrying about it so much, there are loads of problems, so a friend and I found kayaking in the UK you can do it cheaply by finding not local classes which cost through the earth but these for a about £40 a year and they have all the stuff for you to use free or for a £1 or something.

I couldn't go on my own so I am very lucky to have someone to go with, but being safe on the water, learning new stuff it just focuses me, we also do pottery and that again really helps, i'm thinking about what I can make sribbling down ideas, I read Shakespeare a lot as well.

It's not easy, I can't always go or do these things, but they are a good thing to have when I do feel up too it, and a much better obseesiion than how I look or what I weigh.

Gosh it's such a thing these days, I do like the way I look, but I can pick holes in myself if I really focus on it, We have one mirror in the house in the hall, and I just make sure I don't look a complete idiot if I am going out, apart from that I never use them, horrible scary things.

I just soap n water, comb my hair, bit of moisturiser, and thats it, and I see photographs and I don't look bad at all, the kayaking photo's i've just capsized and I'm up out of the river and I never wear make up and my cheeks are glowing from all the fresh air, and I just think why do people spend so long worrying about how they look.

But still I know I could easily slip back into it, and I so don't want too, because it's such a waste of the time we have on the earth.

I mean everything that is happening in the world, people losing their lives, family members, limbs, whats a few pounds, I'm not being condescending this is what I tell myself to keep me on the straight and narrow with the eating thing.

I'm not cured as in i don't have any problems I do have loads, but I am trying to find healthy solutions.