what's wrong with me?

Hi, i kind of stumbled apon this site when i was researching eating disorders. Well, actually i think i might have one. Reviewing other web sites, i think i may have binge eating/compulsive eating disorder. Everything that was mentioned about it sounds pretty much the same as what i have. I sit at home alone, when my fiance is at work, and eat, eat, eat. Anything that i can get my hands on, even though, i'm not really hungry. I really don't know what to do about it, i can't even motivate myself to exercise. Are there any treatments for this disorder?

Dear Guest,
Yes I'm sure that there is help for peole with eating disorders. In my family background we have 2 who are hugely overweight and then the other two have normal eating havits. I myself am a recovering anorectic. I think that anorexia, bulimia, overeating...all the those fall into the category of eating disorders.

So you are not alone sweetie,
Sweetngentle

Overeaters Anonymous groups offer a 12-Step program of recovery that helps us deal with life so that we don't need the excess food. There are numerous websites about OA as well as local meetings in many area! OA charges no dues or fees for membersip!

Hi Tatiana,
I think we are both in the same boat.I'm exactly the same condition with you.And I'm so depressed becoz of that.My binge eating has beeen with me since 8 years back.Can u imagine how much damage I've really done to myself??I'm surprised I'm still alive at the rate I'm going.Somehow I feel myself just wasting away and breaking down,with ALL that HUGE amount I consume.I'm just so down,I need HELP!I was under anti-depressants to help this binge disorder,but it didn't work and I stopped.Now I'm bingeing practically daily.I'm dying..with all that lack of self-control.
By the way,I'm asian and quite petite as a matter of fact,despite me eating much more than what a big-sized man eats.Judging by my small frame,no one even thought or believes I'm a binge patient.I'm TERRIBLE<OUT OF CONTROL: 2 litre tubs of ice-cream,whole loaf of bread,5 packets of party-size(it's the real big ones,sometimes after that,I'm horrified,but then,I'll always repeat doing it) Doritos chips,lots of cookies,chocolates etc. ALL AT ONE GO in a day,and this is what I'll typically consume everyday.I'm sick I know.But if I can help myself,I would.Problem is it's as though there's an external force like an evil pressing me to pour all those things into myself.It's affecting my life,extremely and I just need an avenue to pour all my sorrows out.

Yeah, I just recently worked out that I really do have a disorder. I always knew I was wierd about food, I planned to eat at home, I ate healthy food in front of other people while going up and down the dress sizes because of secret binges. I would diet madly and strictly and successfully for a few months, feel great and then bamm start bingeing again and go right back up those scales. I made the first step by telling my parents the other day, I think they knew I was kinda depressed but they didn't really get why or what was going on. It feels so much better just to have told them - I think the ed was thriving on secrecy. I mean, what's the point in bingeing secretly when they know I do it? So, I'm giving up on losing weight for the moment, I'm just going to accept my shape and see if I can eat normally - not diet in the morning and binge in the afternoon! I'm scared though - I mean, this is the first time I've tried to get help, and I feel good right now. But I KNOW something will go wrong, and I'll have to deal with those nightmarish feelings of being out of control - support please!

Yeah, I just recently worked out that I really do have a disorder. I always knew I was wierd about food, I planned to eat at home, I ate healthy food in front of other people while going up and down the dress sizes because of secret binges. I would diet madly and strictly and successfully for a few months, feel great and then bamm start bingeing again and go right back up those scales. I made the first step by telling my parents the other day, I think they knew I was kinda depressed but they didn't really get why or what was going on. It feels so much better just to have told them - I think the ed was thriving on secrecy. I mean, what's the point in bingeing secretly when they know I do it? So, I'm giving up on losing weight for the moment, I'm just going to accept my shape and see if I can eat normally - not diet in the morning and binge in the afternoon! I'm scared though - I mean, this is the first time I've tried to get help, and I feel good right now. But I KNOW something will go wrong, and I'll have to deal with those nightmarish feelings of being out of control - support please!

It is both horrifying and freeing at the same time to read about others with the same problem as me. Freeing to know that I am not alone and horrifying that any of you are going through the same thing. My binges have become more and more frequent it recent months. It seems that the harder I try to stop the more I do it. I will eat and eat and eat until I am sick and bloated and my stomach hurts. Often I wasn't hungry to begin with. I feel like I have just lost control of my own actions--like some monster has taken over my body. That may be the scariest part. I feel awful both physically and emotionally after these binges. I am back in school now and don't have health insurance, so I can't afford to see a therapist. I have been doing a lot of research and have now bought several books on the subject and I am working my way through them.

Yes there are treatments for eating disorders... Here is some info...

People with binge eating disorder, whether or not they want to lose weight, should get help from a health professional such as a psychiatrist, psychologist, or clinical social worker for their eating behavior. Even those who are not overweight are usually upset by their binge eating, and treatment can help them. There are several different ways to treat binge eating disorder. Cognitive-behavioral therapy teaches people how to keep track of their eating and change their unhealthy eating habits. It also teaches them how to change the way they act in tough situations. Interpersonal psychotherapy helps people look at their relationships with friends and family and make changes in problem areas. Drug therapy, such as antidepressants, may be helpful for some people.

Researchers are still trying to find the treatment that is the most helpful in controlling binge eating disorder. The methods mentioned here seem to be equally helpful. For people who are overweight, a weight-loss program that also offers treatment for eating disorders might be the best choice.

If you think you might have binge eating disorder, it's important to know that you are not alone. Most people who have the disorder have tried but failed to control it on their own. You may want to get professional help. Talk to your health care provider about the type of help that may be best. The good news is that most people do well in treatment and can overcome binge eating.

WAOW...!
I am not alone, I am not a freak!
I only suspected that I have a problem for the past month or so, it never really occured to me that I might have a disorder.
I had always thougth that I was weak, fat, ugly that would just eat for no reason, just finding a reason / excuse to eat. I would just be doing something and then "FOOD" would just pop into my mind. What can I eat? What is in the fridge, in the cupboard? Then I would just start going to the kitchen, open everything just to find something that I could eat. I would just eat until I was almost physically sick and if I still "needed" to eat, I would make myself sick just so that I could eat some more.
2 - 3 years ago I had a major depression and ended up taking anti-depressant and this is when all hell broke loose, I thought: I am concentrating on my mind so stuff the dress size, I can deal with it afterwards.... Hu, wasn't I mistaken, indeed, it was the "licence to eat", the "it is ok, you are in depression".
I feel that I am lost, that there is no way out. I am just crying not knowing why, I just want to shout, scream, do something but I don't know what or why, I am confused at the moment, I want to say "someone help me, please", I feel I am drowning in my own misery... Just writing that makes me feel like people would say "oh, poor fat woman, can't even handle a little over eating"... I want my husband to understand that I hurt, I want him to know / feel for one minute how I feel so he would "understand" even though I know you shouldn't wish that on your worse enemy but…!
I thought that was life, you had to handle certain things and that was one of them, I didn’t know others were hurting like me, I wish you all of you people that hurt not to hurt anymore as none of us deserves it….!

I bid you all Good Night