I tell myself I'm wrong but do it anyway

I have always struggled with weight up&down, fiund I lost when I wasn't tryin gained whenever I lived in a situation I was depressed! Now I may eat breakfast 2 days a wk or not at all, & go all day and not eat till the evening by then I'm so hungry I will order 3 different things or cook a lot pick at it all then get sik if I feel to full, not always but then waste the rest. I still can't lose and I think I binge eat?

It sounds like you def have some issues with eating an weight. Have you thought about seeking some help for this? You do not have to suffer in silence. Posting here is a brave first step. Thinking of you

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