please help me =(

hi im new here. i just finished a 4000 calorie binge. =( i was doing hard core binging for a while monthes a go and i stopped and was really trying to deal with whats bothering me under neath etc... but then last week i randomly binged and i felt like such garbage.
ive been trying so hard to loose weight and get to my goal weight and then on friday, i saw the scale and was soo happy, i was basically at my goal and was feeling great being able to excersize and eat properlly and feel great
and then today. BAM i just binged.. i feel like such garbage. i dont know how to go about this. i dont want to gain or wake up bloated. my face finally got un puffy =( think i gained? how should i handle this? im so scared. i dont want this to happen anymore but even more i dont know how to handle it. my stomach is aching. what shud i do. im so sad and hurt right now and embarresedn=(

I think what you need (and I myself too because I have the same trouble sometimes) is to train a replacement behavior, a behavior that replaces and prevents the binge. for example, sometimes when I get the urge to binge, I do sit-ups or jumping jacks instead. this helps me to focus on what is important: I want to be healthy. plus after you get your heart rate going, you have much less of an urge to eat. OR if you really want food, take a set amount. for example, get an apple and a glass of water. or a little snack bag of pretzels. once you start this replacement for a while it will become routine and you'll start feeling better about yourself. good habits are just as hard to break as bad ones!

I feel for you - you have a disorder (just like the rest of us!) and replapses happen. You can easily get back into eating healthy if you learn from this experience rather than panic about it ruining everything. It has not ruined anything. The weight gain you have seen is mostly water weight, and will subside within the next week. What you can do is examine everything leading up to your binge, what happened, how you were feeling, and learn from it. Learn from the fact that the binge made you feel so terrible and you regreted it so much. Next time you have the overwhelming urge to binge, you will remember how you felt and maybe you'll deal with it in a more productive way. This is true progress with your disorder.