Out of control

I'm new in this forum. But I can't help myself any more. Binge Eating is out of control. Finally. It started 6 month ago. Slowly. Once a week (mostly on the weekends). Then twice a week. After eating through the whole weekend, I starved myself during the week. Then I got in under control, but now it's getting worse. I'm afraid that I'm loosing the battle. Since Wednesday I ate so much junk food. It started with a 900 gramm Pizzan and lots of cookies (Pizza and cookies are my favourites). And on Saturday I ate the following food: Pizza, Cookies, 1.5 litre of ice cream and a bag of chips. Wow. Today (Sunday) I tried to be good. I went for a run. Everything was fine. But suddenly it came back. Pizza and cookies. I feel so horrible again. I am gaining weight, step by step. I am afraid to buy bigger cloth. At the same time I can't concentrate any more. I am so dizzy. I don't do my job any more. My carreer is going downhill. It's a "devil circle". I ask myself. What are the reasons for my situation? Well, I moved to a different country. Left behind my old life. I have a great job. A great carreer. But now I am alone. No friends, no family. Tough job. Everything comes together. I need help. I am loosing it.

Any answers!! Please let me know.
Thor

THor, get things back in order as best as you can. I knoe that it seems impossible, but don't give up, ever. I'd like to know what you see as 'control', however, because to me it just sounds like you are completely out of control with this. 'Control' for me is accepting that I am bulimic, and then planning my binges in a regular pattern to fit in with my schedule. As I do this, I amwell able to get on with my research work and do quite well at it. I usually binge every three or four days. I was once out of control as you now seem to be, and my career/studies equally seemed to be stuttering.

Any questions>?

Kevin