Trying to distract myself!!

I feel so bloody powerless!! I could quite happily go and eat the entire contents of the fridge! Why am i like this? I've managed without a binge for a day and a half but i've had a few stresses this afternoon and now i just wana numb it all with food! I've been talking myself out of it for an hour. I'm not even hungry! But i know that for 20mins of eating i would feel numb and in a strange way happy.

Why can't i just be normal! Why do i have to think about food constantly?? I want to know how those normal people get through everyday without even really thinking about the food there going to eat for the day. Because for me, as soon as i wake up i'm thinking about what food i can eat and how i can try not to binge today.

I'm so mad with myself. I am terribly overweight and i don't want to be like this for the rest of my life. I've been bingeing and sneaking food for about 12-13 years now. When will this nightmare ever stop?

L xxx

Hey, it's great that you're trying to talk yourself out of it and distract yourself. Could you get a little exercise to feel better? Maybe you can go for a little walk to take your mind off it.

Thankyou for replying. I had thought of going out, but it is absolutely lashing with rain here!!! I think i've got over it actually. It's took nearly 2 hours of disuading, but i feel like i'm calming down (if that makes sense!).

And the need to eat the fridge is slowing down. If we say i was at a 10 two hours ago i'd say my need is now about a 4. I've never really tried to talk myself out of it before. Maybe for about 5 mins but then i just think oh what the hell and go and eat. But by sticking it out i'm managing to stop it.

It's just so great to be able to vent my frustrations here. And i really am going to try not to binge today. I'm just trying to take it day by day. I mean i'd love to do a week without bingeing, but i'm not gonna think that far ahead or there's no way i'll do it!

I've noticed a lot of people binge and purge, but i just binge. That's why my weight climbs so badly. Is there anyone else who just binges like this?

L xxx

I'm happy it's going away. Taking it one step at a time is the best way to get through it.

oh yes, I have the same feelings! I haven't managed to stop for one single day over the past year. I have gained 1 stone in about 6 weeks This is literally my worst binge ever.

Then, I compulsively excercise until I lose the weight again. But then the binges come back and slowly but surely I put it all back on again. Recently, the binges have been rather more frequent.

I found, what used to help before was having a good selection of healthy snacks, snacks you would never have before. And buy the expensive stuff.

Yoghurts, for example, get some nice low fat yoghurts in the fridge - the best brand you can get. This way you should know how much they cost you, and if you ate one too many - you will pay for it (literally!).
Basically, if you like fruit and stuff - just get a large selection in.

Get in the habit of snacking on this stuff to get your energy up.



I found that having special occasions like birthdays would entice me to eat alot. And then the whole "ah, I will eat healthy tomorrow" predicament begins. I have been saying this for 4 years now...

4 years...

I remember when I was very slim, I used to work out alot and I used to get pumped and excited about going to the gym to look good in a new shirt - etc. When the weather is crap, I don't wear fewer layers - so the need to look better is fewer.

I used to also not eat alot before going out to clubs because of that bloated feeling. I haven't been out to clubs in years now, and refuse to go to any because of the weight I have gained!

At the moment, I am just feeling alone in all this. its not the kind of problem which is treated in a once-a-week fashion. It is the same as going out on the weekend, you need to have more consequences during the week.


I ate a load today, and that was at 11am. Its 6pm now and I feel energetic. But havent eaten anything except the large meal at 11am. Bearing in mind, I was in work at 7am.

If I changed my meal to a small handful of pasta with chicken, and some fruit afterwards and then a hour or two later finished off the rest of the pasta and chicken that I made - this would of given me enough energy.

The big loads that I eat make me feel tired, and then by the time I am alert - I want to eat, which then makes me feel tired and its been like this for a long while now..
So, I am trying REALLY trying to cut down my food and just get into a normal diet. My body will change because of this.

The weight I have gained will slip off quickly when eating right and regularly excercising (I recommend 20 mins flat out, or 5 mins flat out, 30 second rests between the 5 mins) and just basically push your body to the wall when you excercise.
Gradually you will break a fitness barrier, if you just go walking every day - this will shift pounds, but you will only get to a certain level.

Starting out moderately with excercise, pushing it up the next time, moderately the time after - this will "step" up to different levels of fitness. The random ways of excercise will prevent your body storing in the usual areas and the weight will drop off initially. When you lose about a stone or two after about 3 months - you will find it harder to lose weight and this is when my binges will seriously start because I "feel" lighter etc.

Basically, falling into different patterns. If you get the urge to binge, shake your self up by jumping and flapping your arms and say "what am I doing?!?!" and hopefully this will help you returning to that "comfort zone".


I have a thing where nobody is home, and my programs are on tv - I specifically get food to watch that program

Hi, Mr Bee. Welcome to the forum. It's great that you have good advice about exercising and eating the right stuff. I hope things get better for you as well.