when it's happening

I haven't been able to figure out the reasons I binge. I can't seem to notice any patterns or feelings, emotions, or happenings that trigger my binging. But I do it, and I have no idea why. And I know I need to stop. I feel so out of control. I feel crazy.
What are some ways to stop the binging once I've started? How can I keep my-self from actually grabbing some-thing else? What can I tell my-self, or what else can I do?

Anyone who binge eats needs to seek help from a doctor who can help you treat this mad0moiselle. Alot of people who suffer from eating disorder's have low self-esteem.

Have you ever been told that you were unloved, treated badly at all in your life either now or as a child?

I've suffered from depression since I was nine. It got about as badas it could get. I'm eight-teen now. Only in the last couple years, since I was fifteen, may-be, did it lift. I was in therapy for it. I don't consider my-self as depressed any-more. Because I was in therapy before, that's one of the reasons I don't want to go back to therapy for this. I also have some problems with my digestion/bowels. It's been disagnosed as IBS-C. I don't really know the cause of it. I also don't weigh much. I've has food/weight issues, who hasn't? May-be mine were a little more severe ... From having depression, I gained a lot of weight from taking medication for it. I went off the pills, and lost a lot of weight. I started to feel better, and actually feel the world around me. It was like I woke up. And I started to feel my body. I liked feeling thin. So I tried to loose more and more weight. And I did. But now these compulsions are making me feel crazy. I just want to stop.

You can still have depression even if it goes away because therapy helped. i've suffered with depression for over 10 yrs and i'm not feeling depressed all the time, do you know what I mean?

Have you sought out treatment for the ED?

I do know about IBS even though i've never personally had it, I posted some information on my site about this, I'll go get it and copy it for you to read.

It's not much but I can post more for you:


-While healthier eating behaviours are being estabilished, try to eat a well-balanced, high-fiber diet.

-Consume no sugar of any form. Avoid junk foods and white flour products. Be aware that you may experience withdrawal symptoms such as anxiety, depression, fatigue, headache, insomnia, and/or irritability for a time after you eliminate sugar from your diet.

Considerations

-Psychiatric consultation is frequently necessary to overcome bulmia, as the cause is most often psychological. Long-term treatment may be needed to improve self-esteem.

-According to researchers at the National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) and Duke University, lack of a hormone that controls appetite may be the reason bulimics fail to feel full. In such persons, eating a meal apparently does not stimulate adequate production of the hormone cholecystokinin-pancreozymin (CCK), which is found in the small intestine and the brain. They have to keep eating, and binging, in order to feel satisfied. However, more research is needed to determine whether this is the cause behind the majority of cases of binge eating.

-A study conducted at the University of Iowa College of Medicine and the University of Wisconsin found that reducing weight as part of athletic training may lead to bulimia. A survey of 700 high school wrestlers found that 2% were involved in binge eating followed by vomiting. fasting, excessive exercise, or the use of laxatives to avoid weight gain.

Thank you so much for replying. You have no idea what kind of hope you are giving me right now. Thank you.
Thank you for the information. I don't know the cause of my IBS. My mother tells me that it's because I don't eat enough, but she has not idea about my binging, so I don't believe that's the reason. I think my system just got messed up with the eating and weight changes. I honestly don't know. Self esteem ~ I feel like I swing between hating my body and actually feeling good about it. Like one night I can be dancing and moving and I feel thin and light and beautiful. And I love it. And then the next day I'll binge and start feeling sick, or I'll weigh my-self and get hit instantly, start crying and feeling depressed. I understand that you can still have depression with-out feeling that sad. I believe I still do have depression, but since then, it has just inproved greatly. No, I haven't looked for treatment for an eating disorder. I'm not sure if I have one, but I know I have some kind of eating problems. I honestly don't think I can go back to therapy. Since I was all-ready there for depression. May-be going back feels too much like a fall back, you know? Like going into therapy for this is falling back to being just as bad as being very depressed. I wish I could change this on my own. But I don't know how at all. I need help.

How can I figure out why I binge? I have no idea why I do it. What can help me stop?