I have binged this afternoon. I can't believe it, I feel sick and bloated but I still want to eat more.
This are difficult at the moment, I am living with my in laws as we are in the middle of a house sale and purchase, my mother in law made us all sunday lunch today - proper roast beef dinner. I had a stressful night because my daughter who is three was up every hour to 2 hours, it's weird, if she naps in the day she sleeps all night but if she doesn't nap she wakes 5 - 6 times a night, I tend to jump and see to her right away as I don't want her to disturb my in laws, she was then up at 5.45 and that was that. She has been doing this regularly for over 3 months. Anyway I had my breakfast which was a decent size bowl of cereal. I then didn't eat a thing until the dinner at 1 pm I was so hungry by then I was dreaming of cream cakes and stuffing my face, so I over ate, I had to many potatoes, I also find it hard to say no to my mother in law. Since dinner I have had, chocolate, biscuits, crumpets with syrup on, almost half a cake, 2 packets of crisps, half a packet of cheese biscuits, and a very very large bowl of cereal. I'm ashamed to say this is actually only a mini binge for me, if my in laws werent around I'd do much more damage! Why did I do it? I am bored here, it;s not my house, most of my stuff is packed away ready to move (which should be in 2 weeks I hope). I keep saying I am going to start going running, but it never happens, I am put off now too as a 24 year old girl was murdered not far from here in broad daylight last week, this has shocked our community as things like that never happen here, the murderer has been caught but it makes you think!
We have been arranging a family holiday today, we are planning to go to Florida next year, I can't go like this, I just can't!
How do I turn my life around and beat this? I just don't know.