Uncontrollable Eating

No matter how much I convince myself that I won't eat as much, I do. I've been doing it for years and I have no control over it. It sickens me, and it makes me feel like an incredibly glutton. I used to use laxatives to lose weight, not obcessively, but I still did it more than enough. If I'm not bingeing I'm starving myself for days, it's always one extreme or the other. I've just recently began throwing up because my stomach has been hurting me from eating so much. I am so sick with my behavior, and I can't tell my friends or family. I've suffered from anorexia nervosa 7 years ago, and recovered. Unfortunately I'm falling down another bad path. Can someone offer me any advice, I'm so desperate for some.

hey disconcerted
you ever wondered what makes you binge?....if you could know why you enter that point you go overboard and stuff yourself...?...maybe you could talk abpout it...write about it here...it's just that i binge when i'm thinking...so what i try to do is do other things when i'm thinking about stuff...normally stuff that gets me down.......
if you can't talk to those near you, do you have any help centres nearby.....
somethings defintiely getting to you and you need to do something about it....there's a reason why we binge...soemtimes it's just boredom even but we all have different reasons.....when you know why...or part of the reason why you can do something about it..
hey you recovered from anorexia...you can recover from this too

poisonedcribellum wrote:hey disconcerted
you ever wondered what makes you binge?....if you could know why you enter that point you go overboard and stuff yourself...?...maybe you could talk abpout it...write about it here...it's just that i binge when i'm thinking...so what i try to do is do other things when i'm thinking about stuff...normally stuff that gets me down.......
if you can't talk to those near you, do you have any help centres nearby.....
somethings defintiely getting to you and you need to do something about it....there's a reason why we binge...soemtimes it's just boredom even but we all have different reasons.....when you know why...or part of the reason why you can do something about it..
hey you recovered from anorexia...you can recover from this too

Yes, I've thought about it many times. In a way I know how it started, and I know when it got incredibly bad. Unfortunately now I am under a lot of stress with school and family/ friends and food has become that comfort that I abuse. I actually do not know if there are centers around here, I am going to look into that. I think now that maybe I am getting addicted to the thought of food because I know it is momentary bliss. But then of course I can't stand being bloated and I've been letting it get to me recently. For the last two years I've been really depressed and food was definetly something that got me through.

heya...
i understand....one thing comes after an another and alot of things pile up...they do stress you out...
but what about finding comfort in let's say..going for a walk or a jog.....or doing something else to ease how you feel like watchinga comedy or something.....talking to a friend....get out how you feel and find another way to release the tension....
back in school i used to binge more than now because of all the things going on...even the slightest used to get to me......anything that got me anxious would send me straight for the food.....try talking about it...or find another way...it's tough...but its better...

poisonedcribellum wrote:heya...
i understand....one thing comes after an another and alot of things pile up...they do stress you out...
but what about finding comfort in let's say..going for a walk or a jog.....or doing something else to ease how you feel like watchinga comedy or something.....talking to a friend....get out how you feel and find another way to release the tension....
back in school i used to binge more than now because of all the things going on...even the slightest used to get to me......anything that got me anxious would send me straight for the food.....try talking about it...or find another way...it's tough...but its better...

Idk I'd rather not get into it with people in person like my friends. They won't have much to say about it and it'll only make me feel worse that I told them I have a problem. I have tried going for walks, it gets my mind off it for a while. I just get so ancy thinking about food sometimes. It's like I'm addicted lol. Idk, I'm still working through this. I'm hoping to cross paths with something/someone that will help me.

that's fine disconcerted.....
yes find things tat'll just get your mind off of the food....
tell me about it...addicted...ha i know ho it feels...when i try to avoid it.....i start obsessind over it.....or go over board and not eat.....gets messy.....but eventually you can eat regularly and moderatley...just keep trying.....
i know friends...they may be great people even but you cant always talk to them.....but you can talk here if you'd like.....
i hated talking to my friends at times....they'd look at me like i was jut plain weird......i just ignored it...stopped talking to people who refuse to try and understand

I understand what that feels like. I'm presently trying to dig myself out of the same rut! I hate it, I either binge or starve and there's no inbetween (or not for long anyway). Just wanted to let you know that I understand (((hugs))). Lx

Thanks for the support everyone. I go to the dentist today, so hopefully I haven't given myself any cavities. Now I'm beginning to lose control of the throwing up. Why must food be so mean to me.