eating with no control

For the last few years I can't remember tastign food, it all really just feels a certain way, despite that I eat and eat til I want to vomit or take laxatives, after other vices were taken away. I plan on moving out in a few months and I'm terrified of just eating incesssantly, spending all my money on food, or on the other end restricting so much that I become obsessed again., I guess my question is what do you do to stay in control? Not feel #######5 all the time or want to starve yourself or give in to impulses? Any advice is much appreciated <3

Easier said than done but try not to give food so much power over you! A great skill to acquire is to be able to listen to your body, eat when you're hungry and stop when you're full. Something that seems to help for a lot of people is keeping busy, by keeping busy you won't be so focused on food and instead will feel your hunger coming on signalling you to eat, and by keeping busy afterwards you won't be as tempted to over eat! I'm not saying work yourself into the ground, but have a few things planned for the day (work or leisure) and let them become your priority rather than food!