does the guilt ever come?

I've been binge eating for years

and I mean litirally putting it away

of course it's come with it's issues.. i feel physical pain sometimes, I have trouble finding stuff to fit, I sometimes feel sickk, and I never ever feel guilty about what i'm doing

it's like... well, so what. I know what it's doing to my body but who cares.

does the guilt ever come?

That's strange. But it is also strange that you don't care about your body. Don't you want to live a long and healthy life?

I don't think I do, you know.
my life kinda sucks (and that's not just because of all the mental crap going on)

I believe it's also because I've never been taught to live and enjoy myself (ourselves)