(First post) Transgender man with a binge eating disorder.

This is my first post on this forum, so Hello! I've been trying to find support in other parts of the internet but I thoguth that a specialized forum would help more... so here goes nothing.

I've accepted the fact that I have a binge eating disorder only a couple of months ago. How? I found out there was a name for it... binging has been a constant thing on my life, specially during puberty. I'm now 21 and it's like it's came back stronger than ever.

Last year I came out as a transgender man, aknowledging this made me very self aware of parts of my body I was trying to ignore. I'm overweight, I have big ass, big legs, bigh chest, chubby cheeks... I'm not on testosterone so I often feel like there's nothing "masculine" about my body and that realization sometimes hits me like a rock... and I can't cope.

I don't want to make this introduction post longer, so I'll just add that my biggest binging episodes happen when I'm stressed out (usually about school, I'm in 3rd. year of university) and I can't find ways to cope. I cannot just let it slide because stress is a constant in my life, is just recently that I'm turning to binge eating as a "coping" mechanism (not really that, all the opposite) and I don't know how to stop.

This post is all over the place, if you've read this far I'm sorry...