I have been in an awful binge phase, help!

It started Monday night/Tuesday. I haven't been counting calories but I know I have eaten at least 3000 calories each day. I am 3kg up the scale and I am afraid that weight is there to stay. I feel hopeless and any time my stomach doesn't feel horrendously full, I'd put one thing in my mouth, then another and another until I have eaten a whole day's worth of food.

Please help, I don't know what to do anymore. Because of this I cannot eat with my family. I isolate myself. I'm becoming fatter (I'm afraid I will never lose this weight!), and I always feel tired from carb binges or disgustingly full to the point where it's uncomfortable to even exist.

I have been extremely stressed about university exams, and because of this binge trance I have been feeling horribly depressed as well.

How do I stop? What should I do from now on? It's currently 12pm but I think I have eaten 2000+ calories already (almost a whole bag of rice cakes - perhaps 100g, 1/2 avocado, 2 caramel candies, some smoked salmon, some fish terrine, lots of fig jam, 2 or 3 apples, almonds and walnuts, almond milk and bits of other things... I stopped my binge by binging on raw broccoli). I am going to try my best to not eat anything for the rest of the day, and I'll do my first exercise of the week by going on a run later. I don't even know how to react tomorrow anymore. I'm so sad.

When you are feeling stressed about projects, deadlines or social pressure I want you to first focus on gratitude. What am I truly grateful for? Gratitude derails binge eating and emotional eating; when we drop into our bodies and focus on all the things we have in our lives that we feel blessed about we are about to access more joy, more ease, more bliss…

Practise self care – so often as women we put ourselves last. We do everything else in life first, then leave a little bit of time (if we are lucky) to nurture ourselves. This needs to be flipped on it’s head. Focus on YOU first. Focus on honouring your needs and doing what feels good for you. For instance, having a morning ritual.

This is mine…

20 minutes of meditation
20 minutes of writing out my goals and visualizing
20 minutes of movement (yoga, stretching, running etc)
When I start my day first with honouring my body and mind, life comes at me with so much more ease.

You time is now.

Massive Love + Huge Hugs,
Samantha