First time using a support group. *deep breath* Here goes...

Hi everyone.

My first day as a member on the forum- (please be gentle!)

Bit of background... I'm 26 years old, working in London and for the last eight years I have gone through a spectrum of eating disorders. I guess the pivotal stages were- anorexia at 18, bulimia at 20 (when I was at university) and over the recent couple of years- binge eating disorder.

I've tried and failed at many attempts to ditch the cycle . For the moment, I've kept away from binging for 5 weeks and I'm just hoping I have the strength to go back to the girl that used to know when enough was enough. To not have to obsess about food every minute of every day!

I guess the main reason why I joined, is because I want to use this as a coping tool. To talk to people who have experienced the highs and the crippling lows that I feel I've faced with this crazy lifestyle.

Anyway, I just wanted to say hi for now. Hope I can be of some support to you guys.

Thanks x

Hi,

Thank you so much for sharing. I just joined this website today and this is my first post. Your description really stood out to me. You sound just like me. I always struggled with food in the past and have had every eating disorder. Never super extreme. I don't know if that's denial on my part. For years I lived by very strict rules and very limited diet choices. In an attempt to be less extreme there are no rules anymore and I've gone crazy. Especially late at night on weekends. I don't know why I do it. It seems like once a week I binge like crazy to the point of feeling sick the entire next day. I feel gross. I used to be so thin and healthy. And I've gained 20 pounds in the last 6 months. I feel so sick. I feel so disappointed in myself. I don't feel like myself at all.

Thank you both for sharing. My first time here too. This echos my life way too much...