Binge eating but NOT purging *trigger*

Hi, i got diagnosed with BED about 2 years ago when i was in hospital. I am very over weight, i can't say how much cause of the rules of this forum but i have other eating disorders in the family, in fast i grew up with my sister being very underweight and not getting help till i was 21.

I don't know how to help myself, i pay for my own personal trainer and i still binger (what a waste of money) i eat well some days (some days starve) but most days i binge, and most days in my car or at work when no one can see. my parents know i have eating problems as I've always been open with my mental illnesses but they think i have got a handle on it.

i feel like everyone else manages to diet or eat healthy so why can't i, am i just greedy?

It's the only thing that makes me still *trigger* suicidal but yet that's not enough for me to 'fix' it.

PLEASE HELP

Hi and welcome to the forum.

It sounds like you are struggling quite a bit. Personal trainers are great. Have you got a nutritionist or therapist to help you through this, as well? The nutritionist might help you put together a healthy menu of foods and the therapist can help you understand what triggers you to binge and perhaps with the suicidal throughs as well.

Also, I think journaling is helpful - perhaps writing out particular feelings/emotions each day will help you understand which lead to a binge and which do not. Finding a trigger/reason for doing this can help you stop.

Hope this helps. Keep us posted.

Hi, i stopped my therapy when i started a new job but i'm starting again next week so that should help.. i have tried talking about things when i want to binge but i don't always feel like there's something to talk about, whatever i'm hiding with a binge must be very deep as i can't get to it..

I will try a nutritionist as well

That's great about starting therapy again - I hope you find it helpful. It is definitely tough to discover the root of a behavior at first, but as you work through it more and more, it becomes more apparent.

I used to restrict quite a bit which would ultimately lead to a binge when I got too hungry; my therapist once suggested binges can also be a sign of a nutritional deficiency or your body trying to replenish what it's lacking. Not sure if that's true for everyone but just a thought.

Hi I think you are strong to be dealing with this. I'm glad your talking with a therapist as I know it is so hard to do. Do you believe your emotionally eating or craving foods and treats that you have been restricting yourself from due to trying to diet? Am just asking, not to judge you but so I know so I can possibly lend you some ideas to possibly help your situation.