What I Do Has A Name?

I remember as a young kid eating all the time but I was active so I was always very thin. At age 11 life became difficult so I started making myself throw up so I could stay home from school. This lead to on and off again Bulemia until I was 18, and very VERY infrequently until I was 24. I am now 28 and have had no instance of Bulemia, but have become obese due to binge eating. I just thought I was a terrible glutton..and lazy to boot, but there are others who do it too, so it's not just me.

The only thing that can make me feel like stopping is if I take diet pills and I don't want to do that. I don't have insurance; I'm a single mom who works 2 jobs plus I go to school fulltime and live at home with my parents. I work in a gym so I have a free membership, but I'm so ashamed of myself and paranoid that everyone will think I'm gross... Plus when I do come in, my co-workers make a big deal out of it because I rarely work out anymore. *sigh*

Ugh. I know I can beat this naturally and without meds or a psych, as I did with my bulemia, but I just don't know where to start. Plus I am swiftly cleaning out my bank account because all I want to do is eat fast food or junk food or go to resturaunts...

I even became a vegetarian in hopes that I would stop, but it didn't work and in fact I just became ill because I am anemic and have a soy allergy.

I guess I really don't have a purpose really fro writing, just that I appreciate everyone posting here and hoping that we all get better and hoping that I don't pass this along to my daughter.

Thanks for listening...

Not sure what to tell you. I took diet pills to get where I'm at. After finally having the body that I want, just thinking about that kind of food disgusts me. Maybe I'm the one that needs the psych... If you bean bulimia on your own, I'm sure you can beat this also. As for what people think, ignore them. And remember the hardest part when eating out is ordering, once you're done with that, if you're hungry you'll enjoy anything!
Tina
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So I've made an active choice to stop eating my trigger foods, which is fast food. After I eat that I can't stop and I get very tired.

It's been 3 days.

I know I will beat this.