NEARLY EVERY DAY I STUFF MY FACE I CANT ######6 STOP
I DUNNO WHAT TO DO
MY LIFE IS A MISERY I HATE MYSELF I HELP MYSELF I HATE BINGING BUT I ALSO LOVE BINGING, I LOVE FOOD, IT IS AMAZING AND MY ONLY HAPPINESS BUT IT IS ALSO HURTING ME AND IT IS GETTING OUT OF CONTROL!
I have been trying to eat intuitively, I first did it by timing bites and I timed 30 seconds between bites but then after a month I thought ###$ it and started eating fast.
Then I try it and it is for a day or part of a day, I just get sick of eating slow sometimes.
I cant cope, I'm a wreck

I dunno what to do, will I ever find peace with food?
I have recently given up sugar and sugarry food as I read that itcould be the culprit, through sugar addiction.
Now I have done a lot of reading about how it could be wheat that is causing binge eating.
I dunno what to do, everywhere is mixed messages "dont eat gluten, don't eat wheat, dont eat bread, eat bread, eat carbs with every meal, dont eat meal, eat what you want when you want, dont eat sat fat, eat sat fat, eat slowly, eat antioxidants, eat fruit, dont eat fruit, only eat fruit with whole grains, dont eat grains, dont eat processed foods
And then everywhere says don't diet but then the same places suggest quitting certain foods, it is such a muddle.
I can't cope, I can't stop binging.
Someone told me I need to attend to my needs and my binge eating is a signal to attend to something but I dunno what my other need is.
Earlier before I binged I tried to think about my need and I thought my need was being unloved and that I needed a hug but after half an hour beng unable to fulfill I binge ate. I have eaten TONNES tonight
My stomach is in ######6 AGONY and tomorrow I might do it all again.
This cycle is killing me :'(
I don't want to carry on bingeing
Maybe I should try to give up wheat.