I will try to make this short.
Well Im not quite sure what it means to binge eat, but I think that is what I'm doing.
I always loved junk food! But my huge interest for health and my fear of being overweight has stopped me to go overboard to that extent that I would gain a lot of weight from it. Until now!!
My current weight right now is # kg, and the way my eating habits has been the last couple of days. I will likely gain # kg within 5 weeks. That is why I decided to find some forum so I can get in contact with people who feel the same as I do.
I simply can't stop eating!!! Is impossible. I eat till I am too tired of chewing. A full stomach will not stop me! If I can't get the food I want, my good mood will fade. The last couple of days I have eaten over ## calories every day that contains tons of chocolate, cake, muffin, cookies, pasta, all kinds of junk.
I need chocolate every day!!
I have an app on my phone where I track what I eat every day. And every night I look at my intake and I get sick of myself and promise myself that tomorrow i will put and end to this. And I feel so motivated! My stomach hurts, I have a headache from ALL the sugar consumption. So I feel finish with it.
But when I wake up the next day all I can think about is to eat, eat , eat. And after I have eaten all I come across, I get a HUGE crave for chocolate. Is so HUGE that I will do anything to get my hands on it.
I just don't care anymore. And when the evening comes the depression comes too.
And I promise myself again, that next day will be different.
I don't know how my life became all about food. I just want to stop thinking about it.
I already ate a LOT today including chocolate. My stomach is full. But still I can't get my mind of food.
So to my big frustration I went in the fridge and took out a pasta dish with ham, that is heating in the oven as I'm writing this. I just can't seem to stop. And I live with my mother so my access to bad food will always be there.
What is your story?? I wish we could share and talk together?? and do u have any advice??
Why am I doing this?????????